1    I find myself sitting still, staring blankly at a wall. No thoughts
2    are coming through. I feel as though I am at peace, thinking
3    of happiness or how to bring another smile into the world.
4    It is a day where I look to the fields of hope and smile too.
5    I close my eyes, taking in deep breaths and take in the aroma
6    all around me of fresh flowers. Pushing away the bad thoughts
7    of my broken life. Where I stay locked up, witnessing all the
8    beauty in the world unable to visit such places. Blinded from
9    egregious actions others perform, claiming that it was all done
10  before the eyes of our lord and thus must soon be repented
11  for the better. Almost all of us have been educated to know that
12  it is the grace of those good to help. Even though others think
13  they are all lying, being deceitful, deluding others, not deserving
14  of help. We stand strong, because in the end every one needs
15  love or a caring friend to help them get through. I believe now
16  with my mind at ease, we need to erase the image from the public
17  that the world is incredibly unfair. Only bad things will happen
18  if we believe it to be. It is more important than ever, to give trust
19  to myself and all the people around me. I lay down, ready for the
20  next day. Remembering those I love, even if their body is in a
21  grave, with flesh departed and life depleted. I will accept that
22  I may never see them again, they will always here, never saying
23  my life is worthless. To live out every moment of this life
24  is the greatest gift that any will ever receive. To lose someone
25  is excruciatingly painful. But if you choose to move on with
26  what you have. Then may your life be filled with dreams coming
27  out a sense of happiness. The time you have left will be spent
28  however you wish. I will choose never to spend my time
29  in agony. I hope that the lives of all, choose the better.
30  If not, then read only the odd numbered lines.

Best of wishes in all thy future endeavors & ♥ ∞,
— the one without shade