I never really fell for a guy until the very end of high school.. never even ahd a major crush before then. Except on backstreet boys maybe but hey.. that doesnt count!
Maybe you can say I was a late bloomer in that department.. but it wasnt that really.. I had boys being 'in love' with me by the time I was 9.. as most girls do.. ofcourse its 'gross' at that time! hehehe.. but I never really felt it for anybody. I thought maybe I wasnt sensitive.. or romantic.. or something. I never said yes for a date.. I just got used to saying 'no' and nobody really managed to convince me otherwise!
Me and bf were in the same class in high school.. for the final 2 years.. and for the most part of those 2 years, we didnt even talk! hehe.. he was the class president.. teacher's pet.. the nice guy. I was completely involved in dance and drama and singing and all that.. barely in class.. everybody knew me.. but I only had one close friend.
Suddenly towards the end of high school, me and bf started running into each other a lot. Once in the canteen.. once in the lab.. onece at the bus stop. Every single time he did or said something that really got my attention! Like talking about a book I was just reading.. I liked his company but still.. I wasnt ready to think of him 'that way'. Then we started calling each other up a lot.. and he asked me out finally.. and I said 'No.. I'm busy'. I always did, right! But he didnt say 'alright' and hang up after that.. he said 'how bout friday then? Or saturday? Sunday? Any day of the week!'.. hehehe.. I giggled a 'yea ok.. friday's fine'. It was the 28th of November.
Friday came and we had a lovely time togehter! I liked him.. he was a great guy.. but I didnt expect it to develop into anything/ Hey a movie is a movie! Thats it!
Then there were a few more movies though.. and I found myself getting used to him more and more.. but still I only thought I liked him.. and high school was almost over.. so what could come of this? It was just some nice days spent with someone nice, thats all.
One happy evening while lazying around I had a dream.. more like a waking dream.. when you're not quite asleep. I saw myself with him.. just the two of us and we were in this room with great big beautiful vases. We danced in each other's arms to some really nice music.. then we had some tea together.. and then we were walking in this place with plants around us. It made me smile.. and wonder at its sillyness! I dont even drink tea! How would this ever happen..and where? lol..
Then it was christmas day and he invited me to come over to his place in the day. Both our families had plans we were not joining them for so it made good sense. We met at an eatery for lunch and then drove to his place. He held the door open for me, curteous as always and then we headed up to his home.
As soon as we stepped in, I was amazed by the lovely big vases in his living room.. they were really elegant.. and.. wait.. vases? Ahh.. shut up! We sat down listening to some music and suddenly he says he doesnt know how to really dance with a girl.. never got it right. So I said, 'I can teach u! Its easy!'. We got up and danced to the nice slow number playing.. sweetly romantic.. he was actually good at it.. hehe. Dance? Erm.. naaah.. forget it. We went to his room to watch tv after that.. and right there on his wall was my favorite painting! The exact same one that hung in my room!! As I said on his bed.. he, being the gentleman that he is, get a low stool for himself. The exact same one my dad had recently bought for us. Same colour even!! Wow.. 'ok calm down Dia'.
We talked and laughed and before we knew it, it was almost sunset. He said, 'Hey.. lets eat something.. I'll go get us some cake'. So he went to the kitechen and returned with some cake and two cups of tea!! He assumed that I drink tea in the evening like most indians and made me a cup. That is the only cup of tea I've drank in my life! How could I not? He made it for me!! How sweet!! Tea?? Am I dreaming this?? 'Calm down'. Then we went out to his terrace and walked around.. his hand on my shoulder.. fitting nicely as I am a head shorter than him! hehe.. around us were all these beautiful plants.. his mum really loved plants, it turns out! Plants.. oh my god!!
At this point, I lost it! Now visibly.. only inside my head!! He asked if I was ok and I told him I had just had a revelation but was fine otherwise. He laughed! lol.. but it was true.
That day, I let myself go and really and deeply and absolutely fell in love with him! That day I knew this was not just a few days to be spent with someone nice.. this was what I was waiting for.. this was it for me! That day was about 6 years ago.
Now I dont think those signs were what made me fall in love with him.. but they helped me somehow. They helped me let go and recognise my feelings and admit to myself how deeply I felt for him! They made me believe this was something special.. an important peice of the puzzle.. the vital peice of the puzzle!! I cannot imagine how different my life might have been had that day not happened. Maybe it would've been the same.. but I dont think so. I was a pretty incredible day for me!
So whoever the Signmaker is.. thank you! :-)
