not so casual talks with the elders about marriage always makes me a-mused the first 5 minutes, then me-head-a-way to my comfort slumber. i'm not sure where this is going really..but i promise i'll try to keep this pleasant..so i'd like to save it that i'm truly happy for those-my good friends-who've finally found blissss in tying knots of big responsibilities and making bundles of love. i agree into this positive measure of coping up good with the real world and all. some may even consider it as a mission, a vow, a must, and yeah a dream..for me, sure it is, but more it falls somewhere in a long list with the other nicer ideas i may spend my time with. do not be mistaken, i've always believed in true love. it's a happening scene..but i think it'd be best if we just let loose with the tedious set-ups and agreements and commitments that's never necessary to loving anyways. i am a free spirit..yeah..i feel i'd like to be careless on what could make me happy. in a sense i am getting into it somehow, allowing spontaneous sweet conversations as they go, and never pretending on what a dream should be like. it's out of control for me, breathing out, letting go, and lots of space..and for always i would wish it that way. result is promising..could be art, music, beauty, truth..then love and no more grace higher. i'm getting nowhere here i know..i just want to break out the rules of the traditional search for whatever would complete you..like something's been missing eh? ;) ..it's no philosophy nor future foretelling. it's not even soothsaying. it's openmindedness really, making way for what the heart - my heart - wants to say. i call it openheartedness..haha..you shan't care less but yeah, i'm trying to get sleep as i said..and make way for a headstart to tomorrow**until i'm 80, i'll have the rest in my hands to take these issues on hiatus for now..


he suggested 26 instead.