My really good friend B an her boyfriend broke up lastnight. She called me bawling around 1am, an if I wouldn't have had to be in class early and then work I would have been over there comforting her. But, I left work early, took her out, talked...and then it happened.

 

We were sititng on her floor talking after we had just re-arranged her room, when she asked what really happened with my and my ex...I realized then that no one really knew. She said that after it happened I vanished, always busy with studying for my exams or volunteering..and I guess she's right. But, I mostly did that so I wouldn't have to think about him. I laid in bed everynight for months crying and I still do!

 

I told her what happened, and I cried so hard. I told her I know exactly how she feels, how one minute you feel peace and happiness because you remember a great memory. And the next you remember you may never see that person again, talk to that person, etc ever again!

 

At the mall today things were going great, spending money on worthless crap for retail therapy. And that's when I saw one of his bestfriends, working at a cell phone stand. Our eyes met an then his dashed, and then he looked back at me with the oddest look! So odd, that my friend asked if I knew him? I said yes, but it was like my breathe caught and I couldn't move. More so after we had to pass the stand again and he saw me and then automatically started texting someone. She ever asked who he was texting which of course we didn't know. But, it was just too odd that he looked at me an started texting!

 

I cried with her so much tonight- and had planned to stay at her place but just couldn't. I couldn't sleep tears kept flowing, and I don't know what to do anymore. I am in this dark place, and I can't pull myself out. I don't know what to do..