Well, i'm still waiting for my punishment for my poor behaviour the other morning.  Master has been alternately annoyed and completely fine with me - we've worked together successfully - but there's been no D/s.  Well, He did say i had to make Him cum 6 times by sucking His cock like i did that poor boy!! lol  i only managed two the first night and two more the next night - so i still have two more to go before they're even!! lol, i don't think Master really wants to have His cock sucked six times and cum in one night - at least not when He has to get up and work in the morning!  Plus - that poor boy came pretty easily - he was pretty excited and said it was a mind blowing experience - the best bj he's ever had!! Master is considerably tougher to impress!  And it seems i was supposed to pick the four boys and He was going to pick just one for me - NOT make me suck all four at once!  So i got to pick the one i liked and that wasn't really His plan - He's so good to me.

 

i feel a little better about the whole cock sucking thing now anyway - cuz Master asked me what i liked about it and i was able to give Him an honest answer about it - and He seemed satisfied.  i think it's also given me a little of the confidence i was hoping it might - a little perspective - like i told Master - i think that particular demon has been laid to rest - i don't feel the curiosity about other cock anymore - i've had another one now and it was fun but not any holy grail sort of experience.  If Master want's me to do it again for any reason i think i'd be more comfortable playing out some of the other things like dirty talking and stuff that He wanted me to act out - i was so nervous about the prospect of touching this other guys cock that all of those sorts of things went right out of my head.  Now i've done it once - IF Master has other tasks similar - i'll cope better.  No biggie right!! lol  It's all good - whatever Master wants is COMPLETELY FINE with me!!  It's all about trust and i think the experience did help me be more confident which will allow me to put trust in these situations more firmly in Masters capable hands.