When people attack me and read my mind, they are up to no good. They are trying to make me afraid to go outside. It seems that these shit stains that bother me in this trailer park want me to be agoraphobic as well as schizophrenic. I don't deserve to be a prisoner locked up in my own living space. It looks like I'm going to have to fight back since they want to ruin my life. The reason I say this is because I had to put up with mind reading and stuff when I was on the job while working as a housekeeper and at Dollar General. These people don't want me to work. They want me locked away with nothing. I don't care if I'm ugly or not. It's not their place to bully me into a corner. I know that I would be the one to go to jail if I were to erupt into violence against any of these monsters. That's just how fucked up this society is. It should be illegal to harass people and cause them to break down. That's what they want. I'm not going to let them have what they want. If they do it on the next job that I have I know that I will have to go public and dis the shit outta these fuckers. I'll do what I have to in order to fix my life despite their hatred of me. I know that they hate me. The sad part is that they really don't have a justified reason to do so. I can't control the way they feel about me, but I can put them in their place. I know it's the same subject over and over again. How would you feel if people started reading your mind and ridiculing you? I know that I am not dead, even though some would like me to believe I am in hell. Fuck them. They need to go screw themselves.
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Hegemone said on Jun 24, 2009....
That does sound pretty messed up. Those types will learn their lessons sooner or later, and I just hope it's not at your expense. Good luck being able to maintain and deal with this problem. -
darkerthanlight said on Jun 24, 2009....
Thank you very much. I'll be able to deal with it. I'll be damned if I'm gonna let them keep me unhappy. -
lfbno7 said on Jun 25, 2009....
what do you mean by saying they are reading your mind? are you saying they have some kind of magic power? or that they are sensitive to what you are projecting by the look on your face? -
darkerthanlight said on Jun 25, 2009....
They seem to pinpoint what I am thinking or what I have said to someone else. Then they make sly remarks to poke fun at me. Either they are reading my mind or there's an illegal bug or recording device over around Gabby's porch. On top of that they have commented on this blog in the neighborhood. How do they know what I'm doing online or which blog is me? It's all really freaky. -
alabamagirl said on Jun 25, 2009....
I wouldn't worry about putting them in their place. Why stoop to their level? Your better than that. I've learned in life that you can't control others or the way they act but you can control your reaction to it! Don't let them get to you. You are being very strong, don't be a prisoner in your on home, get out and live your life. I know, easier said than done, right? -
darkerthanlight said on Jun 25, 2009....
Well, I'll be getting out of the house again tommorrow. I have a counseling appointment. I also have to pick up some paper on free computer classes. The one about spreadsheets comes across as interesting. It's something to look forward to doing in order to better myself. As long as I stick to doing the things that I want to, everything will be fine. It looks like I am going to start out with volunteer work before I start doing the actual job hunt. One step at a time. I have a plan. Once I stabilize on the new mood stabilizer and extra antipsychotic all will go well. I just know it. If I'd stop cussing higher powers out every time there seems to be a minor blockage (usually I can jump over them.) I'll be doing even better. -
alabamagirl said on Jun 26, 2009....
That sounds like a good plan, like you said...one step at a time! -
darkerthanlight said on Jun 27, 2009....
Yep.
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