I consider myself a positive pessimist and i want to figure out what can go wrong before it does. this just helps me prepare.. But how do i prepare for when things go right?

Master has always wished for me to find a companion, someone to love me and care for me as He was unable to do. and then i was found by my dear sg138. a sweet gentle teddy bear who's philosophy seemed to come straight from a woman's magazine. He told me of fairness of equal partnerships. He shied away from swinging, my hints towards watersports were met with snears, and even my attempts to push for a threesome was ignored. He was my vanilla guy and i was falling in love but...

It seemed to me that He kept pulling back, cutting out parts of his life.

His divorce was moving to the backburner as the economy brought him greater responsibilities. Our relationship seemed to be heading into a dull routine. dating others seemed impossible since we spent so much time together and falling any deeper in love also seemed impossible since it seemed to me he was now planning to stay married.

i tried a few feable attempts to date others, assert my stand as a free woman, but i found i was searching for a dominant..i realized i had been building my hopes on a fantasy.  i could not be happy in a vanilla relationship.  The time had come to explain all and demand that our intimate relationship couldn't continue. 

i hadn't hid anything about my kinks and submission and He did seem to like a bit of kink, its just that i dont believe i was completely honest about how much Master meant to me and how much i valued all He taught me.

Sg138 got a sob-filled confession from me as i expressed my heartache for the lifestyle i had once shared with Master. Most men would have cursed me and run out the door but not Him. He told me He understood and was grateful for having any part in my life.

But then a transformation truly began. He read every single blog i wrote and more. it was now His turn for a confession.

He had been holding back His 'darker' desires for fear of rejection. My journal entries had inspired Him to seek fulfillment of His long oppressed kinks.

He asked if i would consider one day wearing His collar as well as M1's. And thus His training as M2 began.

He contacted Master (M1) and asked for permission and assistance to become my trainer in hopes of collaring me one day... As Master 2.

M1 question him and questioned me then gave His consent. M1 assurred me that they both loved me and that my training would continue through M2 with M1 as mentor. i would now serve two Masters.

When M2 and i both decide its right for a collar between us, i will wear two.  For now M1 will let M2 use His collar and His slut.

M2 can give me the day to day contact, companionship, and protection that M1 was no longer able to provide. M1 would be an exerienced resource for M2. Together they will plan my training goals.

M2 started with my goal of getting in shape. He takes me to workout every workday and is helping me discover my fear of sleep (that's when i eat).

All this will be a fastinating journey for me and i have faith that it will work. M1 and i have a long history of trust. M2 and i have a deep connection of shared values and interests. it sounds like M1 and M2 already respect each other and will work well together.

i won't be too disappointed if it doesnt happen but, i do fantasize that someday they can work together in person with me.

For now i would be most grateful if they take care of each other and remember that i only have 24hrs in a day..lol

Oh i am in love with my Masters and my life tonight!!!