Ehm. Am I the only one who thinks masturbation is an addiction? I started when I was 11. I wasn't completely sure of what I was doing, but it felt great. Within the next 2 years, my orgasms became greater and more pleasurable. I felt more confident, in some ways.
I've heard of some girls who had an addiction to masturbation. They found nothing wrong, but later in life, when they finally started having sex with their spouse, they began to become a ltitle less satisfied. Apparently, they've found out that their spouse couldn't measure up to what they've done to themselves. Does that make sense?
People say be open with your spouse. So she was. And he became a little angry. He knew she masturbated and he couldn't help that he was the way he was. He tried, but got angry and finally said, "I'm sorry I can't please you like you can to yourself."
I don't want my sex life to be like that. I want to have sex for the first time and...and...idk. Be worth my while, be the most amazing thing. I...want to be blown away. And that might not happen with me being this way.
I want to stop.
Eventually, I started to feel dirty the more I did it. Why would I want to please MYSELF? Isn't that the job of the other? Yeah, there's nothing wrong with pleasuring yourself, others seem to say, but I find it so weak, draining.
I've had people talk about how it's natural. It's a sense of maturity. Yeah, they might be right. How I need to get the "juices flowing." I don't know much, but there might be some things that are true about that. But I can live without it? Imagine someone who didn't know what masturbation was or how to perform it. Nothing can bother you if you don't know what that bothersome thing is. It's true. And trust me, I know someone who doesn't know how to masturbate. She learned what it MEANT recently.
Perhaps, everyone is different. But I will always think of it as an addiction, now that it's brought me to other things. And I want to break it. Is anyone following me? And does it make sense?
