• DaddysLittleSlut said on Jun 21, 2009....

  Hi Madison,
  I was concerned about you feeling guilty about sucking the other guys cock.  Feeling bad about being disobedient might be one thing.. but, if you don't mind my opinion....cuz Master has told me this so many times.::::::::
  He wouldn't have given me permission to do something if He didn't want me to do it.  M2 has told me that same thing.  This is the beautiful thing about D/s relationships; as a sub, we know where we stand with our guy because They will be sure to tell us.
  :::::::::
  Of equal importance, if you are not comfortable sucking someone else's cock, then you need to discuss this openly and honestly with Him.  He needs to know your feelings.  He is responsible for your well-being when you are following His orders.
  ::::::::::
  Accepting myself as a woman with a very slutty side isn't easy.  I wasn't raised to accept THAT kind of behavior nor to believe that anyone else would.  But, being anyone but who i am is truly unacceptable.  I may have my ups and downs but i've actually never been happier. I have now found people that do love and accept me just as i really am.  Your Master will too.
  ::::::::
  I'm sure if you talk about what's bothering you..you won't be feeling so mouthy and passive-aggressive.
  :::
  i may be off base but if i'm reading it right, i wanted to share this hard lesson which i also went go through.
  With respect,
  Dls
  

• Mascon said on Jun 22, 2009....

  Great comment DaddysLittleSlut. It is comments just like this that make SC such a worthwhile community. madisonluvsex you are an excellent sub to your Master. He certainly knows how fortunate he is to have your service. This is an area in which you are growing, apparently together. Recognize the uncertainty as growth and improvement in your submission to Him. DLS is spot on when she said that He wanted this to happen as much if not more than you did. He made the decision, you submitted to his choice, how could you be to blame for anything dear girl?
  
  Now this morning's behavior is a different story. Make your apology, accept your punishment and move on. But I agree with DLS again, it sounds like passive aggression. Master needs to recognize and address your insecurities better. Remember, he is growing in this relationship too it seems.
  
  
  

• pusscat said on Jun 22, 2009....

  Madison - I can honestly say that I could not put anything better here than my friends have already said.   So many times when I was the one feeling insecure and unsure of myself I would come across as tetchy and bratty when it was me I was annoyed with but of course, the one closest to us 'gets it in the neck'.  As Mascon said, that you can do something about right now and apologise for that behaviour but explain to your Sir why you felt that way.  We are on this earth a long time if we are lucky and we never stop learning.
  
  Don't be so hard on yourself hun (though i know we often punish ourselves more than any sadist ever could lol!)
  

• saranglovesnature said on Jun 23, 2009....

  madi, till the time  you satisfy your desire and still pay attention to oyu man  you cann't be termed as selffish. mostly you had the urge for experiencing  different things in life. have fun and make people happy. 

• madisonluvsex said on Jun 24, 2009....

  Thanks all!  i can see the sense in what you say - its' still difficult to get my head around being such a dirty slut still - and that it's ok to be such a dirty slut.  But my biggest disappointment is that i failed to do as Master instructed the morning after.  i have apologized, sincerely and hope that He will punish me accordingly soon.  you're right though - it was a passive aggressive behaviour because i was feeling insecure about my behaviour and trying to assert control again.  i'll keep working on it, anyway, please know that all of your support and input helps soooo much!!!

• pusscat said on Jun 24, 2009....

  Oh hun - I'm so glad to hear from you.  I was getting a little worried and was going to message you darling.
  
  It is not easy for us being who and what we are.  It is not easy for the Dom either.  We are both always learning, always making those errors.  Always remember an age old saying;  'show me the man who has never erred and I will show you the man that has learned nothing'.  We do learn from our mistakes darling. 
  
  You are both human and no human is perfect :-)
  

• saranglovesnature said on Jun 25, 2009....

  pusscat

  i agree with you and whatever happens happens for the good . nobody can ever control their desires........ so be happy and enjoy

• pusscat said on Jun 25, 2009....

  Thank you sarang - nice to meet you :-)

• madisonluvsex said on Jun 25, 2009....

  Wow.  SC is a definatively a cool place.  i like your attitudes!  Thank you thankyou. lol
  H

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