Back in 1997 I was having experiences such as a spirit materializing to the point where I felt it's penis up leaning up against my ass. I was also dealing with periods of overstimulation that came out of nowhere. During much of this time lights in rooms would flicker as if there were power surges every few minutes where ever I went. At least it seemed like that. During the beginning of this overstimulation I couldn't keep my food down or sleep. I would close my eyes, and there would be an involuntary porn movie running through my head very vividly. It has pretty much stopped now. It's actually been stopped for a while. Don't you find that to be a scary experience? I can tell you that no living man could ever come close to making me have a 4 hour orgasm such as what I dealt with in the beginning. That shit had me running around like a donkey's ass not knowing what to do. Why does wierd shit happen to me? All of this shit is supposed to be from schizophrenia???????????????? What the fuck ever. That's why witchcraft helped relieve me from alot of it. What do you think caused that??????????
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Misty_Eyed said on Jun 21, 2009....
Did you ever use any heavy illegal drugs before your diagnosis? Or have you been using any lately? (Actually, no need to answer that to me. It's more for you to consider for yourself.) Some people develop drug-induced schizophrenia from taking hallucinogenic drugs. Just a thought. But yes, schizophrenia does cause experiences like the ones you're describing, I'm sure, or at least it skews your perceptions of everything that happens, and I'm sure it must feel awful.I don't believe in spirits or devils, personally, but if the witchcraft thing makes you feel better and doesn't hurt or endanger anyone else, then maybe it's something that can help to calm you and make you feel as if you can maintain some control. I'm pretty sure most doctors--even kindof open-minded ones--would probably recommend that you NOT practice witchcraft, just because it could probably make some of the delusions worse, but... Well, what do I know?Hang in there, Darker, especially while you're going through changes in your meds. -
UnicornForm said on Jun 22, 2009....
you know, ive had wierd stuff happen to me, like the radio would turn on out of no where and stuff would fly to the other end of the room. drugs or not i know it happened, even if you were diagnosed that silly word schizophrenic, it dont mean you cant change it. it makes me mad when someone is diagnosed something and feels they cant break the bonds. oh! the other day i went on a fishing trip and read a book on witches, and there was some prettty crazy experiences in it. its not imposible! -
Misty_Eyed said on Jun 23, 2009....
sorry unicornform, but I think it's naive to think that you can just wish away a serious illness or somehow conquer it without medical help, just by making a spiritual effort. you can pray, you can do witchcraft, or whatever you like, but schizophrenia (assuming that's the right diagnosis) is some heavy, heavy shit to deal with. it's just as serious as having heart attacks or a brain tumor or something. and I hope you wouldn't try to treat something like that for yourself either.schizophrenia doesn't just get better without real treatment, and it has to be managed very, very carefully. people who don't get the right treatment typically end up retreating farther and farther into the illness until it's nearly impossible to bring them back. and many of those people end up homeless and hungry on the streets with no one to help them out (and even unable to accept help because it becomes impossible to trust anyone else, even the people who, if you're lucky enough, really do try to care for you or help you out). -
darkerthanlight said on Jun 23, 2009....
I understand both of your points of view. One thing that I have learned is that psychology and psychiatry do not agree with the belief in things that "we can not see" such as a higher power. I believe that all of the views have a point to them. I know that medication has helped me a great deal in dealing with people who have a tendency to behave like psychic vampires and enemies of mine. If it weren't for medication, I would have killed someone with my bare hands by now. One thing is certain, someone didn't want me to post the last response I had to your posts on this subject. I had a good response and couldn't publish it. I believe that there is at least one higher power. I have my own personal evidence of the fact. Psych docs will try and rationalize it away, but can't. I have reason to believe that I wouldn't have survived those 4 suicide attempts of mine if it weren't for a higher intervention. There are other reasons why I carry this belief in someone bigger than us. I also believe that a spirit could still live without the body, but couldn't easily communcate with us. At the same time, I don't knock psychology and psychiatry at this point in my life because of the help that the medication has been. I also know that I believe in the concept of building one's self esteem. I don't knock either one of you's peeps' points of view. I understand them. Both points of view have a sense of reality to me. -
UnicornForm said on Jun 23, 2009....
misty. dont apologize for your point of veiw on the matter, which is just that. Thanks dark, god bless you and i hope it gets better everyday! -
Misty_Eyed said on Jun 24, 2009....
Darker, I'm glad to hear you have such a balanced view, and I appreciate that both of you are open to hearing out opinions a bit different from your own. I'm sure there are actually a lot of psychs who would completely agree with you about there being a higher power or a spirit within. -
darkerthanlight said on Jul 01, 2009....
I only seem to have a balanced view. I have an inner battle every day. -
UnicornForm said on Jul 01, 2009....
Yep, thats healthy.