Wed 17 June 2009

 

Other blogs, if you have any interest:

 

1. mishi's blog on wrongplanet.net  (mostly related to aspergers)

 

2. nemo-mentalhell.blogspot.com

 

3. braon.wordpress.com

 

4. braonwandering.wordpress.com

 

Blogging without pills, blogging with them. Blogging with hope and denial, blogging with all hope gone. Blogging frantically last year, to emote, so that I could carry on with each awful day, and blogging robotically now. Do I still do it to carry on with each alien day that is NOT my life as I knew it for 55 years? I suppose so, partly. But mostly I do it now to murder away another hour, as the days are now even longer and harder to me than they were when I still had my hope. Now I blog without poetry, but last year it was a big part of what I wrote. Poetry is gone from me, music is gone from me, spirit is gone from me. Will they ever return? I don't know. I don't care. What matters to me is that I had the music and the poetry and the spirit for the 55 years that I had animals, and was never homeless.