ok, since two negatives make a positive, i guess the my relationship with the guy is positive. more on this point later...but here's a quick catch up...
we ended up keeping the room for another day. we had lunch and then more alone time in the room on friday. thursday and friday put a whole new spin on our relationship, at least to me it did. maybe it was because each of the 3 times we went to the room we only had about an hour to hour and a half to be alone. normally we do a lot of talking before we start doing anything, but these times we kinda got straight to the point, but there was still a lot of talking while we were hugged up. so i think that our relationship has entered a new level cause i'm more comfortable with going straight to the physical whereas before i think i had to mentally relax before all that could get started.
and friday made the 6th day in a row that we saw each other. our goal is 7 days or a week. we almost made it, but saturdays are hard to get away from the families. we were going to meet sat morning, but the guy had his kids, and our die hard rule is no kids are to ever ever ever to see the other person. and this enforces how much we are made for each other, cause instead of being mad that he had his kids, it just made it easier on me cause i was wondering how i was going to run my errands without my kids. i could have but it would have really hard to explain why they couldn't come.
so back to the math lessons. -1 * -1 = 1. so if we are both wrong, together we must be right, right? well today's topic was 'betrayal'. the guy said when he's doing his husbandly duty he felt he was betraying me. now i never told him that i felt similar, but from an emotional standpoint...meaning that the nice things i do for my husband is not out of love, but out of a want to make things better and hoping they will re-ignite love... but i am always thinking if he saw me acting this way to my husband would he feel hurt. i know i would feel a little hurt if i knew that he was thinking more of someone else than of me.. i know that is crazy. so if we are both betraying someone else, and we feel like we are betraying each other with the ones we are betraying, is that anti betrayal, and everything is really normal?
let me know...
