Highly overrated, but finding that it is becoming a way of life.  Funny how I don't always make sense and yet I'll attempt it.  Blame it on my 3 year old, blame it on the fact that the sun never sets here now that it is summer, blame it on the damn seagulls that are nesting on our apartment buildings and won't shut the hell up.

 

My brain is a fog and my new favorite game is sitting in one place staring at one spot for a very, very long time.  The longest I think has been almost a half hour till my oldest son tapped me on the shoulder.....hmmm, I bet I'll break that record real soon.

 

Sleep Deprivation, I think, is the gateway to insanity and I think I'm already there.  My 3 year old woke up last night and wouldn't go back to bed.  He has a scream that rivals those horror movie women...You know, the one that runs screaming at the top of her lungs?  Yeah, he beats them hands down.  Then I stress trying to keep him quiet, get his butt back to bed, and worry about the nieghbors - These apartments, no sound insulation....going to the bathroom is a community activity.  Finally at 5 a.m. he goes back to bed and I'm up because the sun never sets!  The sky at midnight!?  Bright.  At 1 a.m. a touch darker.  At 2 a.m. bright and stays that way.  Thank god we don't live in Northern Sweden, the sun literally never goes down up there.  Then you get to hear seagulls screaming all night! I can't begin to describe the fantasies I have about "taking care" of them.

 

So I sit here, staring, my mind is all over the place, and surprisingly - sometimes totally blank. I feel like something that has been dead for a long time and the cat dragged in and at the same time - I think I'm getting use to it....and I'm not sure if that disturbs me or not...Maybe tomorrow I'll know.....ok going to go and see if I can go to bed.....