So many thoughts are through my head, every day.
I think everyone has that, I don't need for anyone to read this I just need to get thoughts out my head. Like everyone.
The first thing that comes to my head are the problems with my mom.
I think everyone had problems with their perants when they were young.
I don't know what to do with it anymore.
It's just fighting about anything, almost everyday. Everything is always wrong and never right, that's why I came to this point that I don't care anymore and I stoped comming home. Just because I couldn't take the words anymore. They do hurd in a way. I think I'm also scared because I think I'm not the stong person I used to be anymore. I can't close myself for words anymore, it became to hard. That because of a lot of things.
I feel like I left my brother alone because I;m almost never home that makes me feel like a bad sister and it makes me feel weak. My brother is one of the most importand people in my live, my real brother.
Also I feel like I have dumped my dad in some kind of way. It's not true but I don't see him a lot and it makes me think like that's my own fault.
I'm to busy with myself and to make things right for myself. I have to make time to see him and sometimes that's hard because then I have to choose between mt dad and something else. That's stupid.
Then, My sweet boyfriend, No real problems, atlast I think not, I HOPE not. I love him, he loves me, we are almost living togheter and that feel great. Only sometimes he worries so much. In some kind of way that sweet, but there's no need to. I do understand why he is worrying and I think he gots all the right to do. Only I feel guilty to make him worry. I don't like to do things he don't like, and that makes me feel bad.
I also need a job so badly, because now we are like 'living' in my boyfriends parents house. We realy want a place fore our one with an other..
Good Friend of ours, and than I come to the story of D again. He's doing bad locked up. I worry about him a lot. They say that he can come to see us in a few weeks. I don't know how I will react if I see him again. I think I will break down and cry....
The last thing on my mind is my study, i still want to go to the navy and I don't know if I will make it. It makes me scared.
Also in 5 days I hear if I have passed or failed my highschool.
stresssssssssssssssss
My God, Thats out, now I can go on with my day. =]
Thanks Soulcast for letting me share!
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