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Alright so I'm feeling a bit stressed and anxious right now. Make that very stressed and anxious actually.
 
By right now I mean not just today but kinda lately.
 
There.. I said it. I havent been posting at all because.. well.. here I am feeling stressed and I dont want to be stressed.. so I dont want to tell everybody I'm stressed..  I even considered making a completely irrelevant normal post.. but its diffcult to pretend otherwise and be all hippity hoppity when you stressed so I just shut up.
 
Thats very unhealthy though.. and a pattern with me.. so I decided to come right out and just accept the fact that I am stressed!
 
Phew!
 
That wasnt so hard actually.
 
So heres the thing.. I've been preparing for the next step in my life for months.. years actually now. I'm talking about further studies.. doing my masters. I've got all the initial steps covered.. got into the uni and everything. Now there are 3-4 months left before the course starts.. and ofcourse I'm still finishing up my bachelors.. and I'm starting to get anxious about all the paper work and all the formalities that I need to get through to actually start my masters.. and thats what is making me anxious.. I'm worrying if everything will get done in time etc..
 
I've been spending a lot of time convincing myself that somehow all my plans will fall through and I'll be stuck here feeling like shit.. and thinking about how horrible that would be given how much time I've spent planning everything and working for it.. and that just doesnt help. So here I am feeling like shit already even though nothing bad has happened yet. It doesnt help that thousands of students do this every year.. I still worry that I'm the one that'll get stuck. Irrational maybe but tell that to my over-analytical brain!!
 
It has got to.. GOT to work out though.. othewise.. well lets just say I can finally understand why so many people in Japan go on random stabbing sprees.. their visas are held up! lol..
 
It'll be ok though.. I gotta have faith.. I'm in the same boat as everybody else.. and they're not freaking out.. ofcourse there's always a worst case scenario but there are many better case scenarios too! I need to chill.. I know. I'm getting paranoid and twitchy and thinking toooo much.. as usual.. so I just need to chill.
 
God I miss being a little kid when mum and dad did everything!! They still do a lot for me actually.. I havent yet had to work a day in my life.. lol.. so ya I should stop bitching and be an adult and just wait and see what happens.
 
It'll happen.. I can do it.. stop worrying diabolicdame.. damn it!!
 
Its never good when I start talking to myself.. I'm gonna step away from the keyboard now.. 
 
:-D
 


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  • wishyouwerehere said on Jun 11, 2009....

    DD - You have my total and complete empathy.  It's not an easy thing waiting on such a big step, but you have done everything possible to make it happen.  Let that be a comfort to you.

    And if not, let us both drown our sorrows in a virtual frozen strawberry margarita.  I am also getting panicked that everything will fall through on this end!  I've got less than 2 months before the big move.

    WE CAN DO THIS!

    Love, Wishy

     

  • uniquely-ironic said on Jun 11, 2009....
    I've never had that experience, but the stress you're feeling is coming through loud and clear.  I would guess that having to just wait is more stressful than doing something for you.  Don't forget to breath.  Make yourself a priority and perhaps do something nice for yourself.  Or pick up that virtual margarita with wishy.
  • diabolicdame said on Jun 11, 2009....
    wishy.. Thank you! Yes I'm sure you can actually understand what I'm going through.. and the worst thing is, its not in my hands anymore! It depends on when I get my results.. then how soon I can get the visa letter.. then how much time visa takes.. none of it is in my hands! I hate it! But yes.. we CAN do it.. you and me.. we'll both get through it.. dont you worry.. and yes I believe I'll take you up on that margarita!! lol.. thanks!
     
    uni.. yeah it sucks.. the thing is, visa rules were changed last month.. so what used to take 2 days now takes 3 weeks.. and I'm not sure I have enough buffer time.. it too tight for comfort, you know!! Why does this always happen to me?? lol.. I mean seriously.. whenever its my turn to do what people hav done for ages, the law freakin changes!!! lol..  thanks though.. I'm breathing.. :-)
  • queenparanoia said on Jun 11, 2009....

    you can do it!!!! stop thinking negatively.focus...

    YOU CAN DO IT!!!

  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Jun 11, 2009....

    <3

    paper ~


  • Hegemone said on Jun 11, 2009....
    I've got faith that everything will work out for you.  I'm sure you're keeping right on top of all of those formalities that must be tended to, so I'm not worried for one second that anything would go wrong.  Just keep it up, keep on top of everything, submit things early, etc.  Just try not to throw the cart ahead of the horse too often, eventually he'll catch on and turn around to go the other way if you know what I mean.  You'll be fine, things will work out because you're right, you have worked so hard for this, it's not going to crumble on you now.  (((HUG)))) 

    One more thing .... BREATH!
  • fragglesrock said on Jun 11, 2009....

    dammit dd!!! if you keep holding that stress in you're going to develop a very unpleasant facial twitch! i'm so glad that you FINALLY decided to purge a bit here :)  you have a good head on your shoulders so i don't foresee you ending up on the news for any random stabbing sprees, however, i've never been through that particular kind of stress so i'm mainly just talking out of my ass right now, well, other than the good head on your shoulders part, that much is fact :) and just so you know, it's totally normal to miss being a kid at times. i'm 33 and i miss it at times! don't be too hard on yourself girl, and feel free to puke it out here :)

  • diabolicdame said on Jun 11, 2009....

    queenie.. you're right.. focus.. thats what I need.. I need to think of ways this can happen.. I can do it! Thanks hon!

    paper.. thanks for bringing the love dear.. blubbbiiiieeeeeeeeeeeess!!  :-)

    hege.. I swear you comment made me cry a little.. *sigh*.. yes I've been working so hard for this.. it will come through.. it has to! Its a little heart breaking that there are all these obstacles in my path.. the law frickin changed, can you believe it??!! Why now? Why me!! just my luck! Sucks.. but it'll happen nonetheless.. I've worked for it and I'll work more to make sure it does.. breathing.. (((hug))) right bac hege.. thanks so much!

    frags.. hehehehe.. yeah thats what I was afraid of.. and if I go twitching all over the place thats a sure shot way of not getting the visa, huh! lol.. yeah I'm glad to let it out here as well.. feels better.. thanks for saying nice things about my head.. hehehe.. it feels good to puke it out!! lol.. :-D

  • cuppajava said on Jun 11, 2009....
    Hi Dbabe -ok,so here is the thing -well for a start you are not the only one feeling stressed and not posting about it,so dont feel to bad! But seriously - the funny thing i find about life,is that our minds will let us believe what we want it to believe,and we will see what we want to see - You WILL make it through this,and you WILL do well.The trick is time management - work out a plan that suits you,and stick to it.manage your time efficiently and you will be fine.I have been in your shoes before,and i know what its like - but you will be fine.Just remember - be positive about yourself and your abilities and the rest takes care of itself.
  • diabolicdame said on Jun 11, 2009....
    Hey CJ! You know what.. I just tried looking at the situation in a glass half full kind of way.. and from this angle it seems totally do-able.. and its ridiculous how stressed I am/was.. ofcourse there's still the other glass half empty angle.. but still! You're right.. we see what we want to.. I will remember that.. I'm doing my best with my time and efforts.. and I should be more positive.. and as you said, the rest will take care of itself. Thanks friend.. :-)
     
    I've posted bout my stress.. so you dont feel bad posting bout your's now, ok.. it feels better.. trust me.
  • Lucytorial said on Jun 11, 2009....
    YOU'RE NUTS!
     
    man, just get on with it DBabe (LOL) *-}
  • diabolicdame said on Jun 11, 2009....
    Luce.. thats almost exactly what bf said as well.. hahahahaha.. lol.. yeah I guess I should quit the drama and chill..  :-D
  • Raindropkisses said on Jun 11, 2009....
    just chill and well, relax and try to unwind....refresh your mind....haha, easier said than done huh....
  • destinydiva said on Jun 11, 2009....
    awww dd, I'm stressed just reading that!! lol ...actually I felt like I was in my own head for a minute there when I was reading it! :-)    tell ya self it's all gonna be fine..and it will be!! :-)  and if that doesnt work....there is always chocolate fudge cake ;-) xx
  • diabolicdame said on Jun 11, 2009....

    Rain.. thanks.. and yes trying to relax here.. I'm feeling much better now actually.. breathing properly again feels good! lol.. :-)

    des.. sorry I stressed you out too.. lol.. its ok though.. breathe with me! hehe.. You know what, you're right.. I'm gonna keep repeating 'It'll work' until it does.. lol! Oh it'll work alright.. and then we'll have chocolate cake fudge to celebrate! How's that! hehehe.. see.. I'm a little better already.. especially after talking to bf.. for once I actually liked hearing 'You're over-reacting babe'.. LOL..  :-)

  • hotaka said on Jun 11, 2009....
    The way I try to see things is hope for the best but prepare for the worst. Anxiety is normal. By consider that worst case scenario you can also prepare yourself for what might happen if your plans don't work out. It's good to have a plan B, C and D. But give plan A all your effort first. Good luck!
  • diabolicdame said on Jun 12, 2009....
    hotaka.. thanks for wishing me luck! I can surely use it! hehehe.. you know what, I made a few calls today.. turns out things are not quite as bad as I thought and that was a lot of worrying for a little matter.. still gotta wait and watch but now the chances of things falling through are verrrrry slim.. cool huh!! I've been worrying for weeks.. Why I didnt make the calls before freaking out completely escapes me! lol..   :-)
  • hotaka said on Jun 12, 2009....
    Taking action usually helps to better understand the playing field. It's often not as bad as you think. 
  • diabolicdame said on Jun 13, 2009....
    hotaka.. very wise my friend.. thats what I tell bf when he drops a sentence mid-way.. I say "finish it.. you might as well.. anything you say will be better than what I make up on my own'.. LOL..  :-)
  • hotaka said on Jun 16, 2009....
    And very wise of you as a woman to warn him of a woman's power of imagination. ;)

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