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I haven't been posting much lately. I read and I enjoy all of yours but no posts. Two reasons for this. One, is that I am into writing my father's book. Lordy. Writing anything of that length is time consuming. About 6 hours produces a page or two. I have written about 30 pages and Dad is just going off to war. WW2. I feel as if I am living his life as I write. It's an experience and I long to complete it before he leaves me. To put a book in his hand would give us both pleasure. Make the journey seem complete.

The other thing that is consuming my time and my thoughts is my husband. He continues to struggle with heart problems and they seem to be worsening. Yesterday he saw a new heart doctor who believes that he not only has congestive heart failure, and the arythmia, but a new problem called pulmunary hypertension. This is an issue with the lungs related to the heart. It's not good. At all. He can not catch his breath and is extremely limited in activites. People do not live long with this condition. There are more tests and some treatment ahead of him in the near future but I have to confess to a great heaviness in my own heart. We have had our share of problems and things are far from perfect in our relationship, but I love him still and to watch him struggle with this is difficult.

Just sharing. Feeling a little sad and tired.. I have yoga in a couple of hours.  She's going to have trouble moving me today!!



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  • Twylarants said on Jun 10, 2009....
    I'm so sorry to hear this, Woman.  I hope the treatments give him some relief.
  • queenparanoia said on Jun 10, 2009....

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

    sending positive thoughts for you and your family...

  • woman said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Twyla~Thanks. I do too. Just make him comfortable and give him a few more years. I don't really ask a lot.
  • woman said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Queenie~I needed that hug dear. Thank you.
  • introspective said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Dear Woman,
     
    I believe in the power of prayer.... My prayers for you and your family!
     
     
  • Hegemone said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Woman, I'm so sorry you and your husband are being faced with this.  I do hope that everything turns around in the best way possible.  Sounds like a couple of very valid reasons not to post, and the writing, that's even more worth it.  I can't wait to see your post when you've finished it and tell us about the look in your father's eye when you hand it to him.  You'll get there.  (((((HUG)))))
  • woman said on Jun 10, 2009....
    intro~I appreciate the prayers. He needs them. I too, believe in the power of prayer.
  • woman said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Hedge~Thanks for the well wishes. And yes, that would be a happy post to write, wouldn't it. I hope I am able to.
  • uniquely-ironic said on Jun 10, 2009....
    My heart goes out to you where your sadness for your husband is concerned.  It's painful to watch a loved one struggle.  I also am cheering you on from the sidelines as you write your father's book.  I would guess you're learning a whole new perspective on his life.
  • woman said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Yep. Yoga was a little tough today and the teacher was determined that my 60 year old body could do 20 year old things. It can't. Uni~Thanks for both your concern about the husband and the cheerleading for the book. I need a little of both!
  • Me-Myself&I said on Jun 10, 2009....
    woman, i am sorry to read about your husband getting worse. my prayers are on their way. i do hope you can complete your book on your father and soon you two can sit down and read it together. if you are feeling like you are living thru his life when you are writing it, well it will surely be a wonderfully written book. it sounds as if you are putting your heart and soul into it. good luck with everything. take care, blessings to you all!
  • MissMimi said on Jun 10, 2009....

    I'm so sorry your husband, and you, have to deal with this.  I hope the treatment helps so you have some quality time together, woman.  Sending healing thoughts his way. 

    Hang in there, friend.  {{{hugs}}}

  • woman said on Jun 10, 2009....
    MMI~Thanks Memy. He's a strong man and I believe he will be around for a few years. I know it could end up differently, but that's my belief. Right now he is so limited in what he can do and he is tired all of the time. Dad's book. Yes, my heart is in it. I have a new appreciation for anyone who hangs in there and completes a long writing project. It would be a happy day if I could look into his sweet blue eyes and hand him his book. Thanks again. You are a kind soul.
  • woman said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Miss Mimi. It's difficult to believe that we are that far down the road that we have all these limitations. I thought we would have more time to travel and such. There are those with less and I know that. So, chin up, eyes forward and hope for the best. Right? I loved the hugs. They are needed more than you know. Thank you Mimi. Thanks for the friendship too.
  • MissMimi said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Well, woman, I certainly understand all those feelings.  Since it's part of life, the only thing we can do is deal with those trials with dignity, taking one day at a time.  You'll both be in my thoughts.
  • Lucytorial said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Woman I am very sorry to hear this about your husband.  Its strange, I was thinking last night about losing mine and how deeply sadening it is, deflaiting.
     
    All my warmest hugs to you for this journey you are both on.
     
    You tell your dad I said hello, he;s got spunk that man. Pls make yourself into a relaxed yoghurt pretzel, it is important you do not fall apart, if you know what I mean.
  • secretlife said on Jun 10, 2009....

    do you live in a place with a heart specialty hospital?  here in NJ we have hopitals that specialize....and of course most if not all doctors here are associated with major medical centers/hospitals in NYC.

    they have ALOT of heart people.....

    i always think with medical issues that it's worth seeing and getting different opinions especially if the diagnosis from one is a serious one and different from another you've had.  i'm suspicious....i can't help it.  and especially so with people i love and doctors.  i've had some reason to be-  doctors make alot of mistakes. 

     

    i'm sorry you're sad today.  but i really love the idea of that book you're writing.  oh how i wish i had thought to do something like that- 

  • MsStar39 said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Sorry to hear this, will keep him in my prayers.
  • bluegum said on Jun 10, 2009....
    G'day Woman,lovely to see you are making progress with your dad's book ,and i guess the work helps you also with your retireing from teaching ,i'm sorry to hear your husband is not the best ,i hope he improves and things get a lot easier for you all.blue.
  • CreativeWoman said on Jun 10, 2009....
    woman,
    I'm so sorry about your husband.  I will say a prayer for you both and your father.  I hope you do get the book finished for your dad so you can see the pride in his eyes when you hand him his copy.

    CW
  • hotaka said on Jun 10, 2009....
    Well, it's exciting that you are writing a book about your father. But I am sad to read about your husband's heart condition. I don't know what can be done but I hope modern medicine has some possible solutions. I'll be looking for better news from you. Hang in there.
  • travelr712 said on Jun 10, 2009....
    sorry about your husband, and i wish you would post more often.
  • diabolicdame said on Jun 10, 2009....
    I'm sorry to hear about your hubby woman.. I'll be kepeing him in my thoughts and prayers.. and it sounds like you're enjoying writing that book.. seems like there's a lot on your mind.. I hope it all gets better soon.
  • scipio said on Jun 11, 2009....

    Will keep you in my thoughts during prayer times.

  • wishyouwerehere said on Jun 11, 2009....

    Oh (((((((((((((((Woman))))))))))))))) -

    What a wonderful labor of love writing your dad's story.  Just think what a gift it will be for future generations as well as you and your father.  I have my grandma's journal from just before she and my grandpa married until after they had their first two children, and at first, I felt guilty for reading it, but my God, how it has touched me and shaped my perspectives.

    I will be keeping you and hubbie in my prayers.

    Love, Wish

  • woman said on Jun 11, 2009....

    Lucy~Oh dear, there is nothing relaxed about my yogurt pretzels. The breathing though, that's good. I wish you could come visit my Dad. It would probably cure him. I'm getting my mind around hubby's heart issue and trying to think positive thoughts. Thanks Lucy Lu.

     

    Secret~The hospital he will be at is rated one of the best. He has also stated that if this new Doctor is not able to help in feel better in a month he will go to the Cleveland Clinic. I'm feeling a little better today. We'll just do this a day at a time. Tomorrow is a testing day and we are having a nice lunch when he is through.  The book thing is great. It keeps me up too late and I worry too much about it but I know it's a good thing. I doubt it will interest many besides family but that's ok. I don't think that often the opportunity arises when it is possible to do this Secret. It is so time consuming. If my Dad hadn't had his stroke I wouldn't have done it. I wouldn't have been able to catch him and hold him still long enough!!

  • woman said on Jun 11, 2009....

    MsStar~Thank you for your prayers. They are appreciated.

    Blue~I'm fine about retirement now Blue. Totally at peace and enjoying the extra energy I have now that I'm not working. I am wrapped up in Dad's book and have a new appreciation for anyone who writes long works. Whew. Thanks for your kind words about the husband.

  • woman said on Jun 11, 2009....

    CW~Thanks. I hope that day comes but I have to be prepared if it doesn't. He will be 88 in September and he's not getting any stronger. Also, I can only write so fast. It's a process. Fingers Crossed.

    Hotaka~Thank you so much. I'm calmer about it now and the husband is not a worrier, so it will be ok. I guess it just part of life, but not an easy part.

  • woman said on Jun 11, 2009....

    Trav~Thank you. Glad to know I'm missed. I'll do as much posting as I can.

    DDame~Thank you for your prayers. And your concern. It helps. Yes, I am enjoying it. A little stressed because of the time factor, but it's a good experience.

  • woman said on Jun 11, 2009....

    Scipio~Thank you very much for your prayers. I know they help.

    Wishy~Yes indeed. Labor of love. That's the perfect description. I hope it will be a nice way to remind people of who my father was and introduce him to new generations of the family. I had dinner with him last night. Younger, actor brother was in town and we all gathered together at a local restaurant. He is always so happy to be out with everyone and of course to see his youngest son. He has a new Audi, bright red, leather seats and a fantastic sound system. Dad rode shotgun and loved every minute of it!  Thank you for the hugs Wishy. I really need them. I know, you know.

  • wishyouwerehere said on Jun 11, 2009....

    Woman -

    I was just thinking of you - I am reading a really great book by Deepak Chopra and David Simon - The Seven Spiritual Laws of Yoga.  In it, they caution against judging our performance during the yoga postures.  The idea is to accept and honor your body as is while acknowleding its full potential.

    Easier said than done ;) but something to think about.

    Here's a quote I liked a whole lot "In yoga as in life, patience is a virtue.  In yoga, the more you are able to embrace rather than fight your limitations and vulnerabilites, the less limits they hold and the more balance and energy you experience."

    Love and more hugs - Wishy

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