I’m in deep shit. I sent my maid out to buy me my meds today. When she came back, she wasn’t able to buy me some because the pharmacist would not sell her anything. They said that I was already past the number of meds allowed and I need a new prescription from my doctor before they sell me some again. My meds should be continuous even if I have to go for a checkup. Problem is, I don’t have enough resources to get a check up. I never realized how expensive a simple medical checkup is. Now what do I do??? Maybe I should ask Lola again. Its so hard for me to ask favors from anyone—especially the financial kind. We didn’t go out today. My sister-in-law had some problems with her ref and had to get it fixed. So, our little ‘ocular’ got cancelled. It’s pathetic. I’m pathetic. Maybe I should go drown myself or something. Nah. Funerals could be so expensive. I wouldn’t wish to burden anyone like that. On a brighter note, I cancelled a business I was planning to start. I gave about 1k to my maid last week just fund her ‘Basahan’ business. It earns a lot, about 180% gross. It’s big money if you have resources. I gave her 1k just to start it off. If the business took off, I would have gotten 1.8k after 9 days. Sadly, I had to cancel the plan because I needed the money. I feel so pathetic. Hmmmm. At least I have something to look forward to. Even if it might not even happen, it’s the only hope I have left. Well, not exactly, but it’s the only one I can count on. Maybe, I should just email Lola again. Haaay. Hmmmm. I’m tired of complaining. I expect to hear from the priest very soon.