I just got home last night. The past 5 days i spent in quebece. For the past four years my grandmother my "oma" has been in and out of cancer treatments she is now back in for cemo she has 6 teatments 1 or two a month. while she is in the hospital my mother and i travel the 7 and a half hours to be able to go and support her and my grategrandmother who has alzheimer's at the age of 97 she was diganoised and the now 2 years fallowing that have been getting harder and harder watching her slowly slip away haveing this women i love so much not even know my name i was sitting with my mother and her at breakfast one day and she turnd looking at my mother and i "you to have the same face!" she said in german as she speaks very little english any more causing my mother and i to burts out lauphing. later that day i was helping her to sit up on the couch as she is loseing most of her mobility and she looks at me calling my mothers name nearly crying as she stroked my face saying how young i looked and how proud she was, i had to turn away to stop from crying .

there were meny moments like this where i was on the brink of tears unable to control myself my anger and frustarstion wanting so much to help this women who was one of the strongest and most amazeing ppl i have ever come across in my life . she struggled all her life and now she is struggleing more.

my family dosent belive in oldage homes we take care of our own. my gradmother took in her mother and will always look after her . but it is exacusting work everyone in the family sees this and now more then ever my grandmother needs her rest to get better to beat her cancer.She is stuborn though we know it will come to the point where she will either need to send my grategrandmother to a home or have some one come and live in with her who knows how to care for my grategrandmother, "i dont want a stanger in my house" is all my grandmother had to say for now my mother and i take as much time of work as we can to try and help in what ever way she needs.However we can only do this for so long and soon it just wont be enough. im not sure what is going to happen when this time comes but i know that we will get threw it as a family.