i havent seen chance in five years, so when he called to tell me his mom was throwin him a college graduation party this weekend, i jumped at the thought of seein him, meeting his wife and just catchin up in general

i got to the party late as i already had prior plans, but i cut them short and headed and hour south home,......

i wasnt even that drunk,.......i drank more once i got there, but knew exactly what was goin on

i met one of chance's college buddies, who's name i cant even think of at the moment,.....mainly because i kept callin him by his initials all night

he was nice enough, thought he was much funnier than he acctually is, and was your typical aggie

i slept with him last night, and i have no idea why
i wasnt that attracted to him
he wasnt that charming
he was a horrible kisser who i kept having to pull away from
as it was happenin i kept thinkin this wasnt a good idea, but still, i just went with it,.......

i dont know whats wrong with me,.....i dont know why i'm actin like this

i drove home this morning, at 4am, wantin to call kyle,....i wanted to talk to him about what just had happened,.....i needed him to tell me im not a bad person,.....that i'm not this gross discusting slut i feel like at the moment,.......i pulled over and threw up three times