Its funny how when stress comes knocking a person can forget everything! Or worse yet, when stress comes knocking a person can risk everything that is important to them. I know that stress is a normal part of life, for whatever reason, stress is there entwined in our lives like lovers that can't get enough of each other. We turn around and it is there. We try and hide from it by whatever means we can find, but at the end of the day, stress is waiting for us.
I have no clue what roll it plays in our lives or in the grand scheme of things - I don't know maybe if stress didn't exist our reality and existance would cease being. Either way though, there are times I can do without it, like I'm sure so many people can too. It wreaks havoc on our health, in our lives, and in our relationships. Hell, I'm loosing my hair, smoking more than I should, forget to lift wieghts, and can sleep for hours if I could get away with it. There are days I look out the window and just rather go back to bed. Yeah, I hate stress.....Hmm, wonder if there is some magical way of getting rid of it....Say like assasins?
We have been fighting medical staff for my youngest. God that sounds wierd doesn't it? They want to label him something that he isn't, and they want to do it after only meeting him after an hour. I actually got into an arguement with her, which surprises me because I don't argue too much with people who I consider in authority, and too since being in another country I have turned to something I'm not too proud off. My old self flared up and it felt good! That of course is for another day.
Days later, we have found out that we were lied too add that to differences in parenting, unable to communicate with your spouse, a 3 year old that you feel you are fighting tooth and nail for and you have a wonderful dish of stress. We blew up at each other this past week. The end result? I had my suitcases up and ready to pack. The pathetic thing? It was my 17 year old son who sat down and talked with me about it. Funny how sometimes our children are more mature than we ourselves are......
I could have ran away, which is something I wanted to do. There are just times, that things get to be way too much.....Or I could stay and continue on. I of course chose to stay - stay for my sons. Nope, it hasn't gotten any easier, the stress hasn't gotten any less, and our communication skills are still crap. But I'm going to try and stick it out - for no other reason than that I love my children. I guess thats life. I guess thats being an adult. I geuss thats being a parent. I guess thats just the way it goes....
