Okei, I dont think that I am going be able to go to sleep unless I write all this down.
So for all those who don’t know me which is all of you, I am a jealous MOTHERFUCKER yes, damn YES. I think I went to jealousy school or something because Im a certified jealous guy.
Now the thing is I was yesterday with my girl at the skatepark chillin and suddently she says, she felt like going to sleep to mum´s place(woman witch she calls mum and is the mom of her ex boyfriend).So far no jealousy, or any related problems to it.
So she left to mums place.
I go to work today and the only thing I can think of is her. I never had this before with any other girl but everytime that im not with her is when I realize how much I love her.
So I call her and she was still in bed.A bit later I hear from her, and I asked what her plan for the day was blablablablabla Im gonna skip detail ………….
So the thing is we were gonna meet up at the sk8 park around 8:45 but she was going at 7 to see the godfather of her ex-boyfriend with the ex-boyfriend.(Jealousy(plus some other shit) rises to 40 %).
She really never told me she was gonna make it on time, but she never mentioned she wasn’t gonna come at all, she never called, nothing!. I was there until 10:00 and still nothing.(55%)
I arrive home with my head clogged of shit ( already reaching 70%) What is she doing? Where is she? With that ex-boyfriend SHIT SHIT SHIT.(80%) I cant stand it, I trust her but she knows her self what can happen. I called mum and she said she still hadn’t seen her. I called her home and she wasn’t there.
So I bike back home.
I make something to eat, still banging my head, I go upstairs try to sleep because I gotta wake up tomorrow at 04:00 to go work, but I cant! I try but I cant
Its just her and her and her and her all the time.
Suddently she calls:Yes babe im here at mums place, don’t worry she gives some excuses and says that she is sorry.
Yea what am I gonna say, I mean just put you´re self in my shoes. Im sure all this shit is just in my head but I cant take it. It really takes me some time to trust girls in this aspect because I know how things are and it aint really difficult for it to happen.
Actually I do feel better after writing all this. But im still thinking of allot of shit. I just hope to see her tomorrow, and I wont have to say anything cuz she will read this hopefully.
Just let u know babe that I love u the most in my life now and that if im so jealous is cuz I love u and I was born with it. I really trust u babe and I hope u trust me too. But at this moment its my HEART against my HEAD.
ReaLargo.
ReaLargo posted on Jun 01, 2009
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TheThinker said on Jun 01, 2009....
so from what I've read..
your an average guy who worries about his girl...
sounds normal to me.
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RollingC said on Jun 02, 2009....
Obviously you worry too much but then I think she's given you cause. She's still friendly with her ex-boyfriend and his family.Give it time, relax.Rc -
ReaLargo said on Jun 03, 2009....
Thanks.i will consider it.Bit by bit i get to trust her more. -
gingersoul said on Jun 17, 2009....
I love the title of this post...:-D.
I am a jealous person too so i understand what it means when you say your hearth isn't following your head.
But try to keep the jealousy at bay and give your gf some room....don't suffocate her....
If you love them, set them free. If they love you they will always come back.
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