My girl. She's my only girl. She's seven years old. She's in year one. I had a tough time with her. From the moment I was in labour up to date. Yupp. From the monet I was in labour. The dostor said the opening was ready but the baby wasn't there yet. I was hospitalised for 2 weeks. I was induced twice before she was born. She was born at about 4.30pm on 12th of July 1999.

She's the second grand daughter to my Mom. from the 1st day I brought her home, everything has to follow her wishes. It had to be baby pillows and bolsters done by grandma. It had to be matress that was bought by her. She has to be wrapped the way grandma wanted it to be. Everything was grandma, grandma, grandma. And I don't have close relation with her myself. I was weak. Really weak. She didn't think off me. Her concerned was only the grand daughter. I was envy with my daughter then. Especially when I was carrying my second. My mother was so proud of her grand daughter. She would bring her everywhere. She was a smart kid. She became her Grandma's favorite and being envy by her cousins.

As she grow older, her grandma's expectations grow higher. I understand her feelings. I understand my Mom's too. I know it is a real burden for my daughter. My mother sees her as a big girl. She's only seven now. But my mother treat her like she's a teenage. She wasn't allow to wear as she please. She can't keep her hair long because Garnny says it a mess. Everything is Granny says. Just like playing Simon Says. If you don't follow, your're forfeited.

This scenario does upset me so much. She's very vulnerable. She's easily touch. If she asked for something and I could not fulfill immediately. She'll cry. She'll show the rebellious part in her. I's afraid this will effect her studies in future. Thank God, she still can cope it at the moment. She wss top 5 in class. To me that was good. For Granny, that's not good enough. Wasting too much time palying with her brothers.

I don't know how am I going to handle this. Me and hubby were thinking of moving out from my parents' house. The problem is the house is our already. That house is mine now. My father gave it to me cause he wants to stay with me. My only solution is to renovate the house. Turn it into double storey bungalow. My family will live in the top floor. It is just two house in one. I just pray that it will happen. My wish will come through. So now you know where is my AdSense money going to. Yes. It is just for my beloved daughter. I'll do this for her and her future. I want her to feel free. I want her to enjoy her childhood. At least she has more space for herself. As she is my only Girl.