Sometimes I really think that I just want to run away. Even though I am 22, some things just still get to me when it comes to being at home. I'm at my parents house and have been for about 3 weeks and I still have one more week because well they make you move out of your dorm until summer classes start; therefor one more week! But, I know that my parents work hard, mostly I am stuck home with my Dad since school is out for summer and we get along for the most part. We spend the days going to the gym, and cooking maybe sometimes watched tv together. But, that's fine with me and relaxing for the most part.
That is, until my mom gets home at least. She works so hard, I know that! But, she comes home and will just be so mad and aggrivated from her job, that she takes it out on us. Me sometimes, even when it's like "hey mom this weekend lets make some dessert!" and she's like "i thought you wanted to loose weight?"
Which I am, but it's not like I was like mom lets make APPLE PIE! one of the fattening desserts, I know she likes to cook on the weekends and I wanted to go to culinary school so why not make something together. PLUS it's not like I am as big as I use to be, I am maintaining my weight! And so far in 2 weeks I've lost 6 lbs! I'm working out, eating right, but I just really don't want to be here anymore.
I want to go and run away...Whether that's back to school or to a friend;s house..but really I just want to be left alone! I feel like I bottle up all this frustration with trying to make sure I give her her space so she's not so bitchy, and I end up frustrated all inside. So, I am just really wanted to just get in my car and drive, don't really care where I end up, and if I had the money I would probally be in a hotel right now, sounds like perfect bliss to me..
I can't wait to go back to school. At least there I am busy with class, a internship and only the weekends I will be free, to spend wondering around barnes and noble all I want...
