Well, i got it under control last night and actually fell asleep fairly early - didn't obsess about what Master was doing with L and rested. woke up feeling refreshed and good. Master came back - we did a few things that needed doing and He had to go out again for work - and sent me a task via text. So, i guess my behaviour yesterday is forgiven?
The task he set me today was to read the responses to my "a few clean cocks needed" ad and select four. FOUR!!!???? so i have done that - what did i base it on?? Nice face, nice looking cock - no gnarly bits, and what they wrote in the mail - plus their height and profile information.
i keep trying to actually picture being in a room with four strange men and my Master and getting to the point where they are all naked and i am sucking and stroking their cocks. it's so far removed from anything i have ever done that i have a hard time imagining it. it's all fuzzy and surreal seeming. the idea sorta turns me on - but it's more like i'm imagining watching a porno where it's happening and it makes me wet - i don't know if actually doing it will freak me out completely or not!!! i'm thinking just the right number of tequila shots will be in order....................i still don't really know if Master actually intends to make me do this or if it's a test of some sort. i'm kinda hoping for the test theory.....but i guess a part of me is kinda hoping for the reality theory too. i think part of the fear is that i will like it if He makes me do this. What happens if He makes me and i like it?? then what happens next?? that really does make me a huge dirty slut doesn't it?? This is definately a tough one. Anyone else done this sort of thing?? Help me out here Soul Members!!!
madisonluvsex posted on May 28, 2009
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T's_Pet said on May 28, 2009....
Wow Mad -
Mascon said on May 28, 2009....
I am glad you are having a better day. You are doing right by your master and are trying hard to be a compliant obedient girl. Good for you. I believe his tryst with L will fade away and you needn't fret so much about it. The girl from what I have read (one sided as it may be) seems weak and hasn't the selflessness to participate in the kind of relationship you share. Be strong, be dutiful and you will surely prevail as the good slave who does as pleases her master.
Liking the thought of this test is a good thing. Being a huge dirty slut is a good thing. The difference in the way the sexes perceive this experiment and the negative connotation on the word slut really irks me. If the situation were reversed and a man were servicing four women would he be perceived as a "huge dirty slut" or a friggin hero? It is natural for women to enjoy sex. they should be free to enjoy it with as many partners as they like. It is a shame that we try to shame 40 million years of natural instinct with 500 years of screwed up morality.
I hope the reality comes to pass. I hope you enjoy it immensely. You deserve it for being such a good slave. Learn to celebrate that huge dirty slut within you. She's a wonderful creature.
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madisonluvsex said on May 28, 2009....
LMFAO! Thanks guys - always nice to hear the support from Soul members. -
T's_Pet said on May 29, 2009....
Let's try this again - btw, i HAD written more than just "wow mad" - but apparently I got edited . . . i think the main point of my previous reply was that WOW!!! I would be nervous too. While what he is suggesting to you SOUNDS sexy as hell, I am not sure i would be up for it in reality. On the edge of my seat waiting to hear though . . .T's_Pet