Her name is Lucifer! I met her about 1 month and a half ago.It was a tuesday i was comming back from my tarot classes and i stopped by the skatepark to give my friend D a jumper he had left at my house.When i arrived to the skatepark i recognized everyone except one girl.First thing I did was ask a friend who she was.I dont know why but meanwhile i was talking with her for the first time it felt like i allready knew her.
Days pass and we where seeing eachother everyday, she started to hang out with the same people i did, the more i would see her the more i wanted to be with her.
About 1 week and a bit after we knew eachother we sometimes would give a kiss on the lips to either say hello or goodbye.But it seemd i wanted her more than she wanted me.
I tried to talk what i felt with her but it was so dificult because im not much of a talker for theese things but i really try to because everytime after I talk it out i feel relieved, plus the time was so short she barelly knew me and i barelly knew her.She was so heartless back then it felt so dificult to reach her she is so open to everyone but she closes up once you try to get close.
It think it was either a saturday night or a friday night cant really remember, we were in a bar with a few friends and some others and i was sitting next to her holding her hand meanwhile she was talking with a girlfriend from her suddently she squeezes my hand a few times untill i look and she was making out with a girl.I was like what? haha .i was like shocked and she was just laughing her ass off seeing my reaction.
I asked her like why she had done it and she said she just felt like making out with someone and I said well next time tell me haha.
2 minutes later we were making out but she made clear it was just for the fun of it.
Bit by bit we were getting closer but at the same time I felt like if i was loosing her.I had to sit down again to talk about it, and she called it off at the moment, i felt bad really bad like if i had lost everything but i said to myself i havent came all the way here to just let her slip.
So I insisted a bit talking my self into it saying that we could just continue like seeing eachother but infront of our friends we are just friends.I kind of felt like she didnt feel at all close to what i felt for her.But i think she kinda decided to give me a chance.I told her to let me know if she ever felt something because till the moment we were just friends.Her explanation was that she had just broken up some time ago with a guy that treated her bad and in some way kept her heart.I just felt like giving her my heart.
2 days later(14-5-09), we were lying in bed and she told me she wanted to give it a try, I was speachless i hadnt felt so happy in such a long time.She is the only good thing that has happened to my in theese last 3 months.Days pass and we are getting to understand eachother allot more.We are so different and i think that thats what keeps us together.I havent loved someone like this in a very long time.It just feels like a lifetime next to her.
I love ya LUCIFER!!
Days pass and we where seeing eachother everyday, she started to hang out with the same people i did, the more i would see her the more i wanted to be with her.
About 1 week and a bit after we knew eachother we sometimes would give a kiss on the lips to either say hello or goodbye.But it seemd i wanted her more than she wanted me.
I tried to talk what i felt with her but it was so dificult because im not much of a talker for theese things but i really try to because everytime after I talk it out i feel relieved, plus the time was so short she barelly knew me and i barelly knew her.She was so heartless back then it felt so dificult to reach her she is so open to everyone but she closes up once you try to get close.
It think it was either a saturday night or a friday night cant really remember, we were in a bar with a few friends and some others and i was sitting next to her holding her hand meanwhile she was talking with a girlfriend from her suddently she squeezes my hand a few times untill i look and she was making out with a girl.I was like what? haha .i was like shocked and she was just laughing her ass off seeing my reaction.
I asked her like why she had done it and she said she just felt like making out with someone and I said well next time tell me haha.
2 minutes later we were making out but she made clear it was just for the fun of it.
Bit by bit we were getting closer but at the same time I felt like if i was loosing her.I had to sit down again to talk about it, and she called it off at the moment, i felt bad really bad like if i had lost everything but i said to myself i havent came all the way here to just let her slip.
So I insisted a bit talking my self into it saying that we could just continue like seeing eachother but infront of our friends we are just friends.I kind of felt like she didnt feel at all close to what i felt for her.But i think she kinda decided to give me a chance.I told her to let me know if she ever felt something because till the moment we were just friends.Her explanation was that she had just broken up some time ago with a guy that treated her bad and in some way kept her heart.I just felt like giving her my heart.
2 days later(14-5-09), we were lying in bed and she told me she wanted to give it a try, I was speachless i hadnt felt so happy in such a long time.She is the only good thing that has happened to my in theese last 3 months.Days pass and we are getting to understand eachother allot more.We are so different and i think that thats what keeps us together.I havent loved someone like this in a very long time.It just feels like a lifetime next to her.
I love ya LUCIFER!!
