Yeah! A Day OFF....it's been a while since I've had a day off and wouldn't you know it...it's raining. With my brother on vacation someone had to be there to manage his resturant...that be me...12 hour days were killing me.... but I'm off today...and I feel like skipping and singing....." I gotta day off.....!!! la la la......haaaaaaaaaa...." Except...
Anyway....the days are passing by to quickly. Please let them slow down, God...that was a prayer sorta. It seems we've all been waiting for the nice weather to arrive and now that it's here there is so little time to enjoy it. I don't want another summer to go by without actually spending some time wallowing in the beauty of it. Work...work work...bills keep coming, damn them, so there's just work work work.
Ok...the home front. I started doing laundry today and noticed my soon to be 21 year old son had left the fan on in his room. It's like 45 degrees outside and he still runs that fan. I guess it was so hot in his dorm room that he has grown accustomed to putting that freaking fan on 24/7. I guess it's no big deal but when I entered.....at my own risk mind you......his domain......I looked around and thought about what a slob!!!!!!!!!! college has made him! ugh grrrrrrrrr...........There is so much shit laying on the floor.......that you can bearly walk around in his tiny cramped room. Everything from college just seems to be piled around the walls closing it in even further. Now mostly I believe if you wanna live like a pig.....hey ...I'm not gonna stop ya....but damn-it...somethings' gotta be done. I hate jumping their shit over things like cleaning, I try to choose my battles...but you know...it just kinda irks the crap outta me....so tonight......we will talk......
My "baby's" high school graduation is just around the corner. How did it come up so fast. i am dreading that day but looking forward to it too. I found a stack of baby pictures of him the other day and while going through them I got all teary. Where did the years go? and where was I when they were going ....??? Oh I remember everything, but it seems like such along time ago. I even can remember taking those pictures. hhhhhhhhhhhhh....big sigh.....
so....I'm thinking that I am in need of some ..."fun sex"...I don't think I'm ready for any kinda relationship ......whatsoever! but I really need to get laid. This "do-it-yourself method" is fine......but ohhhhh it leaves something to be desired.....again a chuckle....Now I know I have some options out there, however.....I'm not sure they are looking all that pleasing. I wanna look at him....whoever that him might be, and think...yummmmmmmm.......and get all excited with anticipation. Except the guys that have been holding my interest don't actually do that for me....but this celibate life is not working for me.
Oh and there was that mistake of 3 minute sex with my soon to be ex. Oh My....what a mistake that was......but it was a reminder of one of the top ten reasons for my new life without him....I like to say that was 3 minutes of incrediably hot sex....not even close. It was a mistake after the first 30!!! seconds. I don't know what I was thinking...but it's a lesson for all those out there who smoke a little weed and are with someone that you don't actually wanna be with. I will never do that again!!!! So I'll just wait ...as if there is much more than I can do...
So it's my day off and there is so much to be done. there is no time really to be typing, or worrying, or remembering, or wasting...I gotta go do things......so ........
