Happy Anniversary! It's my wedding anniversary today. 17 years. Hubby is not here. He texted me last night at 11:30 that He would be home soon, that we would work a little this morning and then go to the city for a little shopping. Sounds good right? Didn't happen.
i can only guess at why. my best guess is that either L went to where he was working last night and they are both there still or - somehow - she convinced him to go to her place when he was done instead of coming home. She wanted her regular thursday night even though she had been with him exclusively for sun and mon and was here for tues and wed. So while i have had only one afternoon alone with Him all week - she has had two full days and shared my days and now thursday night when i told him i didn't want to wake up on my anniversary alone! Or, i could be wrong - He may have simply gotten wrapped up with His partner and crashed at work cause they were talking till late.
Either way, i don't think it's fair. especially after i was so good for the two days she was here. i was nice, i wasn't jealous, i was good. He told me i was good. Why does He do this?? What have i done to deserve it? i've been married and faithful for 17 years and it means nothing to either Him or her. It's important to me. It makes me very sad that it's not important to Him at all.
i'm very upset and sad, i don't know what to do. If Him not being here now has anything to do with her i want her gone. If it has nothing to do with Her and it was His choice alone - then we have a different problem. i'm fairly certain that it does have something to do with her though.
Master says because i'm older i must be more mature about the whole thing and give her a good example. i did that for two days - she commented how i was like His servant and do everything He says. She said straight out that she's not doing that! She has no desire to serve anyone but herself and if i'm the older one she should have to give me some respect - and influencing my husband to stay away on the night and morning of our anniversary shows zero respect . No matter how hard i try to like this girl or at least to not dislike her - she does something else that just makes me think that she's a greedy, selfish, self-centered, idiot.
i told Him i was confused about what He liked about her so much and His response was that she's like me! and look how good i am with guidance and a firm hand - and she needs that too. But i at least always have had the desire to please Him and to serve - she has no desire for that at all!!
We'll see what happens - again!! if this has noting to do with her then i will repent and feel badly for my assumption. But i don't think im wrong.
madisonluvsex posted on May 22, 2009
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justk said on May 22, 2009....
sorry you are upset. sending you warm wishes! -
pusscat said on May 23, 2009....
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY darling!!!!!
I am not in the habit of disrespecting Dominants madison but I am rather disappointed in his treatment of you, and on your anniversary. He says that you must be mature about these things? That is a load of cock and bull! I'm 42 years old, i think anyone would class that as mature, but a doormat can be any age. Being mature does not mean accepting being disprespected. When a Dom tells you he will be there, then there he should be. How can we sub's learn obedience, loyalty, honesty and respect, if they don't follow through on what they tell us? What kind of teaching is that?
To be honest this has nothing to do with D/s at all. In a vanilla relationship I would be most upset if my partner just didn't turn up when he said he would. i would want an honest answer and not be fobbed off as if my feelings do not count. I see no maturity in his actions that night darling.
All you have done over the past few days is show loyalty, respect and maturity with him and L. I'm so sorry you have been left feeling like this but don't let anyone tell you your feelings are unwarranted or immature. Find me a woman (or man for that matter) that would not have been upset by this and i'll take back all my words here. Is it not L who gets all whiney with him that he has sex with you and not her? Is it not her who whines about the time he spends with you instead of her? Is she not being immature and yet her immaturity seems to get her what she wants. What lessons as a Dom is he trying to teach you cos I can see none here.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((( madison ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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madisonluvsex said on May 23, 2009....
Thanks puss! that's just how i feel about it too! but Master did come home fairly early in the morning and explained that he went there while waiting for his partner to come in and ended up falling asleep! Still upsetting but at least not malicious - we ended up spending the day together and the night alone. i'll post the details in my blog today. Thanks for the suppport! -
Girlygirl said on May 23, 2009....
I agree with pc madison... I would be absolutely crushed if Daddy didn't do as he told me he would...it undermines the trust we subs put in our Masters. And he should NOT be spending your anniversary with her...as Daddy's other girl...I would be upset if he was not with his wife on their anniversary..While I admire you for trying to not dislike her, I already dislike her lol..I hope you can forgive me for that..but if she has no desire to submit to him as you are willing to do...what does he want with her? I think she is a very whiney little girl and I hope you are rewarded for your good behavior -
madisonluvsex said on May 25, 2009....
LOL, yeah, i don't think she's got a sub lurking in there either - but He's never been one to run away from a challenge! Plus, as you know now - he did come home in the morning andd we had a very good anniversary anyway. But you're right - she would NEVER send Him or encourage Him to come home to me. She does what she can to keep Him there. Not cool.
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