There are alot of things in life that try to keep me from being Daddy's girl. But then there is the intrinsic thing within me that makes me lean on my Daddy when He is near. I don't have to be hurt or sad or scared to just want to lean on my Daddy's strong chest and be His kitten. It's kind of a strange phenomenon for me because i have always been an independant type of woman. Even as a young woman. I could handle whatever came at me on my own. Paradoxicly i have always been very needy when it comes to affirming attention. Now that i am in my 30's i finally stumble (not without help from my Daddy) onto the reason i can be both of these things at one time; which is the fact that i am meant to be Daddy's girl.
Have you ever seen a young girl with her Daddy at the mall or out to dinner. One who's all proper and primped for the outing with Daddy. She talks about everything, giggles incessently and corrects His manners. He indulges her, delights in her chatter even thugh He's not really listening, and is aptly appologetic when something He says or does upsets her young sensibilities. They can share secrets and treasures alike. She makes Him feel strong and necessary, He makes her feel safe and loved. There is nothing quite as sweet as this picture. How strange then for this image to be of a 30something, grown mother of 6 and her Husband of 21 years. But that is how i am around my Daddy.
When we are out together He makes me giggle and buys me silly things that i don't need just to see that little girl smile on my face. He whispers nughty things in me ear to make me blush and teases me when i do. He always holds my hand, leading me wherever He wants to go, never lets me out of His sight and when i step away, testing my independance, He follows me rather than letting me wander off and get lost like a child would. It soulds silly to write it all out, but without this element of our relationship i would indeed feel lost. I need His strength, His love and guidance. I need Him to protect and watch out for me. I need His approval and His discipline to know that His love is real. Above all, i need His absolute loyalty to know that my heart is safe with Him.
It's a tall order to be a Daddy. But what does He get out of it? There are days i feel ery guilty for the way that i use my Daddy without reciprocation. I feel llike i should be taking better care of Him and giving Him more to show how much i love and need Him. I feel a need to earn that which He is so willing to give freely. But i can't. Instead, my devotion to Him, my adoring love, my caring for Him and my faith in Him are what He gets out of the whole thing. I know it may not sound like alot, but think on it this way; who would not want to be a bonafied super-hero? That's what a Daddy is to His little girl. Not that we don't know and accept that He is human and can make mistakes, but like children, most Daddy's girls don't hold grudges. We are easily hurt by our Daddies, but we also easily forgive and let go of any hurt and place our Daddies back up on their rightful pedastal. Daddy is my super-hero, everyday.
