I don't understand what cause someone to waste their whole life for drugs. My heart is broken. Someone who is so amazing can become such a horrible person because of drugs. Why? I feel stupid. Here I was letting myself be open to someone else again and the next thing I know they have completely changed on me. The person that I was spending time with and falling for did a flip and became angry and completely different. The same mouth that told me I was beautiful and amazing told me I was a whore. Is it always like this? Do you always get burnt when you finally decide to open your heart again? No wonder girls don't believe in fairy tales anymore. Prince Charming doesn't stay long at all.He will ride in on his white horse, throw a few "You're so beautiful's; You're so amazing's" and then he disappears. Gone back wherever he came from and instead your left with someone else. Someone you don't recognize. I know everything he said was the drugs talking. The drugs make him someone he is not. But it is still heartbreaking to me. I miss him. I never thought I would miss someone else. And I never thought I could get hurt as bad as I did with Steven. I guess that's what I get for thinking .