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today, i watched slumdog millionaire...
 
i was curious about this movie mainly because of the awards it won at the oscars...
 
and also because of the main theme of this movie...
 
destiny...
 
i really like the movie. i like the flow of the story. i like the way the answers to the questions has a meaning on his life...
 
anyway, after watching that movie it really made me think...
 
about our destiny...
 
i believe that all of us has a different destiny, a purpose in life...
 
i believe each of us has our own personal legend...
 
and every event, every choice, everyting in our life has something to do with that destiny...
 
in our society, today where people are told what to do or how to live their life how can we follow our destiny?
 
easy...
 
take more risks in your life...
 
i sound foolish don't i? 
 
maybe it's because i'm still young and i need more experience outside my own little safe world...
 
maybe it's because i'm young and i need to grow up a little more.
 
maybe it's because i still belive in some stuff that people call foolish like dreams, destiny and other shits that ive been talking about...
 
or maybe...
 
just maybe...
 
as you read this post...
 
i actually make sense...
 
there is an endless possibilities in our lives...
 
and i believe that in every life in this earth there is a purpose... there is an unwritten script in our destiny...
 
and i also believe that all of us have one thing that can change that destiny...
 
we have a choice...
 
we can change the course of our destiny...
 
and i'm very lucky that i know mine very early in my life...
 
maybe it's because the moment i stop looking for it, it just came to me...
 
maybe it's because when i decided to live my life for me it just came to me...
 
maybe it's because i surrounded myself with people who helps me shape that destiny...
 
maybe i'm just lucky...
 
or maybe...
 
just maybe...
 
it's meant to be...
 
when i was young i knew that i was meant for greater things in my own little world...
 
i know that my life would not be dictated by what my family or what the society tells me what i should do...
 
i know there is more in life...
 
and i also know that in order to achieve what i'm meant to do there would be a lot of sacrifices to be done along the way...
 
and i know i would learn and grow from them...
 
for now i really don't know what my destiny is... or what i'm specifically meant to do...
 
all i know is...
 
my destiny, my fate, my purpose, my personal legend...
 
is that i'm going to make my dreams into a reality...
 
i know it's not gonna be easy and i know i would have a lot of hardships ahead for me...
 
but i know that i would make it and i know i would inspire people along the way...
 
i am the queen after all... ;-)
 
my choice is to follow that destiny...
 
take one moment at a time...
 
and i know right now as you read this...
 
you have become a part of that script...
 
what's the ending???
 
i dont know yet...
 
that's the best part in all of this...
 
the surprises i'm going to get...
 
well that's for tonight my soulcaters...
 
remember that we all have our destiny to follow...
 
we all have choices to achieve our dreams...
 
and we have the power to blog about it...
 
 
 
 
keep on blogging!!!


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  • travelr712 said on May 17, 2009....
    fraggles and i were talking about this last night. she wondered how old spock could end up in a room talking to young spock. old spock went through a black hole that sent him 'back in time' relative to his timeline. where he ended up, the events of this new timeline had been changed 25 years in the past of the new timeline. so the events of old spock's youth were not the events of the youth of the young spock. two spocks. two timelines. when old spock went through the black hole, he ceased to exist in that 'universe', in that timeline, but that timeline, with all its events, continued to exist. the new timeline had existed before the black hole, and now exists with 2 spocks of two different ages. my point is, quantum physics suggests that there are an infinite number of universes where we either exist or don't, and every possible choice we can make, we have, every possible condition we can live under, we do. if we found a way to move between these 'alternate universes', we could see what our lives would be like had we turned left instead of right, married this person instead of that, taken this job or that one, was born here or there because our parents made different choices. perhaps after we in each universe, we start collecting all of those other versions of 'us', and when the last one crosses over and melds, we become a complete being, our version of a god. fun to think about, huh?
  • Hegemone said on May 17, 2009....
    You know, I think this is a lot true Queenie.  All of us have our own place in the grand scheme of things, a purpose.  For some it's huge, for some it's small, for some it's to help themselves, for some it's to help the masses, for others it's to help a small group.  Each of us has our own destiny that will speak volumes along the way ... and each thing, no matter how large or small, is really equivalent as we all have our own unique destiny.  I agree right on with this post.  The hard part is embracing it and then agreeing to make the choices that are sometimes hard to make.
  • andora said on May 17, 2009....
    traveler and the spock thread spoke to me here queenie

    the issue about black holes - past/present/future - choices and fate is up across the board now that earthlings are communicating freely through www. this has been the central point of the principle of panGasm that I continually promote here at SC.

    what makes destiny predictable is that we all live within Universal Laws of Nature

    and



    we all have the ability to make unique choices within these parameters and cycles of being together



    when I learn how to use the Laws of Nature to enact my unique choices without hurting others or myself, then I come close to claiming my birthright, which is:

    PERSONAL SOVEREIGNTY

    many continue to ask what that is and how to get some

    your missive about your heart's desire Queenie is close to my heart, this is what I have been trying to reveal, in my clumsy and arrogant way, how to access our birthright

    the power to choose depends upon the ability to collect all of oneself, as traveler suggests, to make an aligned decision and stop creating fractal realities. maybe this is over topic here, but my emotional disturbance comes from understanding how people actively reject the mercy of providence with ideas like sacrifice. I am not criticizing anyone for being altruistic and loving as you were when you accepted sacrifice as a means of earning your heart's desire queenie, because it is motivated from loving altruism and a willingness to contribute. I have found that the idea of sacrifice has been used as a tool to create conformity to that which we do not desire. but, over all, I found your words to be uplifting, hopeful, self-accepting and beautiful. I have always found you beautiful. thankyou for sharing.

    aloha
  • travelr712 said on May 17, 2009....
    I have found that the idea of sacrifice has been used as a tool to create conformity to that which we do not desire.
     
    that is a very astute statement andora, and a situation i face, and complain about, often.
  • fried_marbles said on May 17, 2009....

    This was a great blog! Slum Dog was good, but sort of low budget feeling. Oscar!?...WOW!

    go figure...

  • andora said on May 17, 2009....
    mahalo 712
  • travelr712 said on May 17, 2009....
    de nada andora :-)
  • queenparanoia said on May 17, 2009....

    thanks for the comments guys. every one has a different persepective abotu this and i'm glad that you shared yours...

    trav: you couldnt get ridd of star trek can't you???lol... ;-)

  • scipio said on May 18, 2009....
    Que Sera , Sera... Whatever will be, will be.
     
    C'est la vie
  • GrapeKoolaid said on May 18, 2009....
    Here's a question:  What if you're destined to make poor choices all your life?  Perhaps born under the sign of a fool or something?  (This is something that I've wondered quite a bit about myself)

    What if it's your destiny to make no marks whatsoever? 

    This keeps me up at nights sometimes, though I try not to think about it too much. 
  • Voltaire said on May 18, 2009....
    Rather do it then to later on reget never to have done it. BUT tie security ropes, at least I prefer to land on the ground; not rock bottom.

    "A wise man fights to win, but he is twice a fool who has no plan for possible defeat" a man once said.
     
    GrapeKooLaid,
    Every being makes "prints", or marks in it's surroundings.
    It depends on how big or small your persepctive is; if your looking world wide effects or maybe only family close efects.
    There is no way around that.
     
    Personally I think it is more like destiny vs your tiny brain. Some try to run away form their fate if you will. Sometimes fate can catch up wth you and result in your life up-side-down.
  • CreativeWoman said on May 18, 2009....
    I hope you find your true destiny, queen.

    CW
  • queenparanoia said on May 18, 2009....

    thanks for the comments guys.... ;-)

    grapey: we are all destined for something bigger than us... believe me yours will come... ;-)

  • fragglesrock said on May 18, 2009....

    i think it's EXTREMELY important to recognize our different choices in life, it's sad when someone fails to make decisions and then says "doesn't matter cause my life is already mapped out" good for you qp :)

  • queenparanoia said on May 18, 2009....
    fraggles: :-)
  • superbozo said on May 18, 2009....
    Life is a matter of choice not chance.
     
    Sorry I've got that hanging up on the fridge :)
  • queenparanoia said on May 18, 2009....
    superbozo: we have the choice to change our chances in life... ;-)
  • superbozo said on May 18, 2009....
    I like it QP....I am gonna add it to the sign on the fridge :)
  • GrapeKoolaid said on May 18, 2009....
    Voltaire:  The sad truth of the matter is, if everyone's special, that means no one is... 

    I'm well aware of our spheres of influences interacting with one another in a certain extent.  Power doesn't necessarily flow from top down.  Not always.  In fact, one can assume that there is a dense web of powers that dictate one's life, or at least steer it towards some general purpose.  Even if that means to be a good corporate citizen. 

    I've come to terms with the fact that one can't escape their destiny.  A genetic predisposition, if you will.  People can't escape their nature.  It's when we do that I'm surprised. 

    qp:  Well, whatever comes, you know I'll meet it with a big grin on my face.  I always do.  Easy like Sunday morning.  :)

    What is it do you feel like you're being steered towards? 
  • queenparanoia said on May 18, 2009....

    superbozo: :-)

    garpe: it just feels right... :-)

  • andora said on May 18, 2009....
    special?

    here is some insight about how special each one of us is:

    each human heart has a unique rhythm that travels out from that heart, at the speed of sound, to the ends of the Universe. We are registered throughout time and space by our unique heartsong. My heart is very impressed with the collective heartbeat, very impressed with the power that could and would come from this symphony of special hearts when we come to agree with one another not to push our truth upon one another, but to share it. However, when everyone is just passing time until the heart gives out, it gets lonely and boring -- when groups choose to align with one another about non-violence and honesty, then love flowers and gives each unique heart a new interest in sticking around to make unique contributions.

    When the voice of hopelessness is put in the drivers seat, then folks keep to themselves and defend their position, which is closing in upon the unevolved voice of hopelessness.

    I listen to the decisions that hopelessness wishes me to make - in regard to my future - in regard to my contribution and I do not deny this part of me, I am fascinated with helping it to integrate with the heartfelt voice of inspiration.

    As Evelynn Monahann says: "I am shedding the cloak of pessimism that comes from so many disappointing experiences" ( i think this quote is close to the original - but u probably get the drift).

    leaving a mark is the great question of mortality, especially for the childless among us. But, as long as your heart is beating, know that you are known.

    There is a spectacular book about the nature of the human heart that deeply inspired me called "The Heart's Code". Check it out if you have any questions about your presence, importance and influence here on earth.
  • Voltaire said on May 18, 2009....
    GrapeKooLaid,
    Both true and untrue, depends on your viewing angle.
    We all are made of matter, atoms, we all have DNA and so on.
    However there are small finger prints in different combinations; hence we are also unique. Even we may look, or act similary but there is always something that seperates us from others.

    I perfer to see it as a "energy network", similar to a computer network.
    I think it works closer to that, as a analogy.
  • GrapeKoolaid said on May 18, 2009....
    Voltaire:  I understand what you're saying, and I agree with you to a certain extent.  Kinda like leaving a wake in the water as a ship passes, each ship is gently rocked by the other ships that pass by. 

    But statistically speaking, out of 8 billion people out there, some of them have to be winners, some losers.  I'd be willing to bet that most of us are just plain, average middle of the road people.  This myth of individual exceptionalism, this belief that "everyone's special" is just that.  A myth.  More like a symptom of the disease that is modernity rotting away at the core of one's soul, dreaming of a charmed life and frustrated at not being able to attain it. 

    I see it everywhere.  A distasteful mix of a sense of entitlement and narcissism.  They know where they want to be, but they want other people to take them there and are frustrated that they are not there. 

    Which further cements my belief that people are ordinary, and bound by their nature. 
  • queenparanoia said on May 18, 2009....
    grape: being special is a choice. being ordinary is a choice... choosing your destiny is a choice... you can be contented in what life can offer. or you could find more what you could offer for life... just like i said, your destiny just feels right... ;-) 
  • GrapeKoolaid said on May 19, 2009....
    qp:  How does one choose destiny?  Rather, I think it's chosen for you.  (By whom is another question entirely, but I think it's clear that you are not the one doing the choosing...)

    Just out of curiosity, what is it that you think I'm destined to do?  :)

    "Feels right" is a good description, though.  I hope you are chosen for something that feels right for you also.  And soon.  :)

    However, I don't think being special is a choice.  If it was a matter of perspective, the word would lose its inherent merit.  Like I said before, if everyone's special, that means no one is. 

    Most of the people that I have ran into in my life have been quite ordinary, simple, run of the mill people.  I want you to know that I'm not making a value-judgment on this.  Just because people are ordinary doesn't mean they're not kind, beautiful, as you say, "special" in their own way. 

    I have, however, met a few people in my life that have truly been extraordinary.  That much more beautiful in their rarity, objectively special.  I'm obviously not one of those people.  I can only admire and envy them, glow by reflection, if you will. 
  • queenparanoia said on May 19, 2009....

    grape: your comments really make me smile. because i know youre on the process on finding your own destiny. i cant really explain it through words. for example can you really describe the wind until you feel it though your skin???

    maybe our destiny is like that. it doesnt necessarily can be explain... it's just that it feels right for you...

    sometimes i have doubts on what my destiny is because i'm so impatient. but i know someday i'll achieve it... ;-)

    anyway, a question for you. whats wrong with being special? what's wrong if you think youre special??? it doesnt mean youre better than anyone else... it just means that something about you is unique. is something wrong with that??? :-)

  • Voltaire said on May 19, 2009....
    Grape,
    Yes there will always be winners and losers; evolution I believe they call it.
    I believe the majority is just plain lazy as well.
    A man once said something like: "Luck walks in overall and looks like a lot of hard work"

    As for being special; it is a matter of perspective, agreed.
    "Mr X" for example don't think of himself as special but others might.
  • Raidernation19 said on May 21, 2009....
    Great post! upland podiatrist
  • doortoinsanity said on May 23, 2009....
    EXACTLY. 
    Beautiful.

    Some people never realize this long enough to try it out.
  • queenparanoia said on May 23, 2009....
    doortoinsanity: glad you like it.... ;-)
  • doortoinsanity said on May 23, 2009....
    Loved it!
  • queenparanoia said on May 23, 2009....
    door: :now you became a part of the script... ;-)
  • doortoinsanity said on May 24, 2009....
    Oh, Hell NO!  Look out! 
    lol
  • queenparanoia said on May 24, 2009....
    door: lol... ;-)

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