What a mission trying to keep everyone balanced and not reacting to each other. I'm just about done with it, the coming and going of children and situations changing then changing again and again. On and on it goes. On top of it all is the differences between them all - All six of the children -(all but one are teenagers) have their own unique personality and nature. I am so use to my own children and their behaviours and misbehaviours that I find it difficult to see anything wrong with the way they act. Yet to the new ones that enter our lifes my childrens behaviour can at times be unacceptable. I can see this but still within me I feel I understand them and its not a big deal to me. They are good people and after they blow they always settle and talk about things. Years ago a very good friend said to me (about my acceptance of the outward burst of emotion) - Hey, in a sick sort of way I wonder if it maybe healthy. My children have always been free to express what they are feeling and more often then not it comes out wrong to start with. I suppose this is how I learnt to identify there was something amiss and could then start digging. The problem now is I am in a relatively new relatiionship with children that have been brought up not to step out of line - and not to show there displeasure or to even speak about it. Its the funniest thing to reach a point where I can identify that whilst doing my best bringing up my 4 children on my own I created things for them to deal with as adults that never ever entered my mind. I suppose I was so busy doing the best I could with the little I had trying to keep them safe. I sit back and see the cracks that weren't visible whilst I was doing it. I acknowledge the couples out their that are managing to stay together and bring up their children together. I acknowledge the Mums and Dads that are doing it on their own - I know the path and know it is difficult to cover all basis.
Love and Light
Heavenlysent