Faith is a funny thing. It for me is more bitter than sweet. While I don't subscribe to any particular religion, I do believe that something bigger is out there. I pray on a daily basis. Right now I have no idea why. Everything seems to go quite unheard and am left to wonder if I am talking to myself. I hope I am wrong but fear I am not. I know that some would read this and say that it's maybe my lack of unwaving faith that leaves my prayers unanswered. I would hope that God is not that spiteful, if he/she/it exists. I need help. I need to know what do and I am at a lost for a direction to head. I know there are no easy answers to life. I am just tired of being stuck in bad situations. If you did not read my previous post my mom stole the rent check from where I leave it for the landlord before he could pick it up.........again. I am moving at the end of the month but was going to continue to try and help her. I just don't think I can do it. I am hoping the money is there to give him another check today. I have to call him and explain why the check was not there.........again. It makes me look like a deadbeat. I hate this. I do not know what to do anymore.
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uniquely-ironic said on May 12, 2009....
Maybe you need to let the landlord know where the problem really lies. It might be hard on your mom, but maybe she needs the wake up call. Stealing rent money for ANY reason is uncalled for and wrong.Is it possible that "God" is answering and you just don't like the answers? -
fragglesrock said on May 12, 2009....
i'm sorry :( it's so tough when we have to parent our parents... -
auroralost said on May 12, 2009....
Uniquely- I took your advice and sent an email to the landlord. I also officially gave him notice. I told him we would be out by July. I figure that should be enough time for her to find another place without feeling too harsh.Fraggles- You hit the nail on the head, it is exactly how I feel. -
wishyouwerehere said on May 12, 2009....
Hi Aurora -This may sound strange, but I actually think we are sort of praying to ourselves. Prayer allows us to tap into our divine nature/ origins, the light of the soul that binds all of us.At the moment, I feel as though many of my prayers are also unanswered, but many of them are ... I can only trust that One in charge has a broader perspective and understands the full repercussions of what we request by knowing what happens before it actually occurs.I hope I am making sense.Maybe prayer's sole purpose is to continue to give us hope, fuel for optimism and dreams, creative energy to keep us moving forward, despite the obstacles.I can only imagine how frustrating it is to try and move ahead while your own mother is working against you.It seems futile at times, but I keep at it - and will say a little prayer for you as well tonight.Namaste, Aurora (the light in me greets the light within you) - Wishy -
auroralost said on May 12, 2009....
Wishy- I like the idea of praying because it gives me hope and fuels optimism and dreams. I have made the decision to leave her in my past when I move. Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts. May the positive energy make it my way and I will send to you as well.
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