Its been four months and im still in love with my ex. We went out for a year and got very close. Im at highschool and this was one of my first ever serious relationships.
As time went on, we formed a nice group one of which was my best mate who hung out with us. My girlfriend and him always seemed close, but i never thought anything of it. When i met her, she was really nice, but as time went on and she moulded to suit me she became bitchy and irrational.
She broke up with me "because she wanted to be friends" shortly before she began her goal of destroying my future.
she turned almost all my friends against me, she screwed three of my best guy mates and is now dating my mate i was talking about before. From what im told they love eachother and couldn't be happier. They all 'hate' me and she continiously attempts stupid myspace/facebook bitchy shit.
Her boyfriend is always telling me how he loves doing her, and all the nasty things which she does to him and how much they all hate me. People tell me that when we started going out she told everyone "she was doing it to screw me around and to get a bit of $$ out of me". I was devastated when i heard this and went to her on msn and talked.. Much to find she had soon copied and pasted all my convo to over 20 of my friends.. Humilating me. Whenever she talks to me directly she is never hostile, but she seems to think that by saying shit behind my back i wouldn't find out.. Is anybody else frustrated with this?
Saying this, the time i had together with her was awesome and such a change to my life now. I have made new friends recently but only for them to backstab me too as a result of her telling them all the stuff I've done wrong.
I feel alone, with nobody to turn to. I feel hated and i feel like my attitude in the past few years has been totally wrong..
I want to change, and learn from my mistakes etc BUT am still upset. I never have anyone to talk to and i feel like crap.
I eat more, i smoke more, i drink more and i talk less. i don't know what to do.. Do i go back to her after all the stuff she's said behind my back? Do i wallow in my misery for a while and hope it all gets better?
I've lost the determination to go and meet new people and all i want is to be alone..
I miss her like crazy, everyday for the past four months.. And i hope that she misses me too, but i know she doesn't. That's what hurts the most.. I don't know what to do.. Can somebody please help me?
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tim_needshelp posted on May 11, 2009
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truthsayer50 said on May 21, 2009....
The pain is real and justified. You have been betrayed. Don't put yourself through the anguish of defending yourself. It is not necessary and perpetuates the agony. Not everyone believes what they hear. Refuse to listen to tales of your mate's activites with your ex-girlfriend/user/abuser. Obviously, she has many problems and that is sad. You can't let her sickness destroy you. You miss the closeness and exclusivity that you felt that you had with her, not her. The real her is not very nice or kind to you and she appears to share what she has to offer with others as well. This would appear to mean that would include the backstabbing, too. In time, your mates will get a dose of what happened to you. The truth will reveal itself in time. Don't waste your time worrying about it. No one deserves such drama and insensitivity in their life. It can only lead to illness in the end.I am sorry that the true feelings were only on your end. If you had known what she was really like before, would you have gotten involved? Now, that you do, try to see that there is a blessing in being able to know the difference between a user and a wonderful, loving, sincere, and monogamous girl. When you experience the closeness, faithfulness, and loyalty of really decent girl who loves you, you will probably get very nauseous at the thought of this person who is causing so much pain right now. Please know that you are worth so much more and deserve so much more! Believe that! Get people like her and your other backstabbing mates out of your life so that you can live a happy one. Look at how you are feeling right now. Who needs that? There is a world full decent people out there. Select your companions from amongst them. It is easier said than done, but it will absolutely change your life and the course of things to come. -
summer_night21 said on May 23, 2009....
You are not alone my friend. I went through almost the same event, except she loves her ex-boy friend instead of me. And Tim, it's people like those that disgust me. The people that make you out as dirt because your not good enough for them. But in fact its the opposite. I know your feeling pain because you miss her, but your bond as lovers is over, and she doesn't know that. Break your bonds Tim, you are a strong man. I have been in sorrow for months now and played our relationship over and over again in my mind, and I've found my epiphany... this world is large, there's oceans, mountains, cities, deserts, rain-forests, and many people. I've realized that this is "my" life not hers, and this world is huge and I'm ready to explore it head first. She is my past now, and my future is up to me. I know that there is a girl out there for me thats will love me as much as I love her. Tim you must open your eyes to the light, which is that you control your future and you control your feeling and you are going to live your life. If your friends turned on you because of her, they are fools. Tim you and I are alike, so find your strength, because this world is big... and she's the past. -
anonymous said on Jun 01, 2009....
Woah, that is one messed up situation. Look, I'm a girl and the only piece of advice I can give you is to NOT talk to her or even look like you care when people tell you about all those nasty things. What annoys a girl most is when things don't go their way. By you reacting the way she wants to, you're merely satisfying her needs. If you act like you don't give a fuck, she'll immediately think of you in a differently way and maybe even think what she did was wrong. Trust me, always use reverse psychology on girls. Good luck x
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