• travelr712 said on May 11, 2009....

  hmm, why you think your beauty is 'once upon a time'?

• Edriisxe said on May 11, 2009....

  Because I have a low self esteem and I dont see myself beautiful anymore. I don't feel myself anymore. I feel drained, but i am still the same person, the same rose. A rose is beautiful when blooming. When it dries, its still the same rose, just not as beautiful.

• travelr712 said on May 11, 2009....

  well i think that depends on one's perception of beauty doesn't it? press that dried flower in a book and look at it a year later. isn't it even more beautiful than when it was blooming?

• Edriisxe said on May 11, 2009....

  ...Honestly, I wouldnt know. Never done or seen something like that. But i believe you on how beautiful it could become.
   
  My perception of beauty is very strange. I ses everyone beautiful somehow in their own way. But looking at my face in the mirror, I see a level of beauty so low its ridiculous. Well, maybe not so low. I feel confident every once in a while, but nothing major. It's like I need to keep staring at myself in a mirror to remind myself how i look is perfect. But when i dont see myself, i cringe because i worry of others look on me. And i shouldn't care what others think, but its what runs in my head all the time.

• travelr712 said on May 11, 2009....

  i used to think i wasn't good looking because people hardly ever told me i was, but i'd hear them saying this or that other guy was really good looking. but as i look back, i think they said that to me, but not to the other guy, so he was probably in the same boat i was. i've seen women who i find extremely attractive and other men think are repuslive, and vice versa. physical beauty is a comparison most times. so who are you comparing yourself to?

• Edriisxe said on May 13, 2009....

  I think I compare myself...weird as it seems...to everyone. I don't think I compare my physical attraction to others. It's their confidence. I see the extreme lack of confidence I have. I look at some really heavy set, unproportioned girls, or a girl who's extremely acne-ridden, and I see how comfortable they are under their skin. How they look in the mirror, they aren't perfect, but they are really happy. (the most of them) And yet here I am, not skinny, but i'm definately not fat, 125lbs, 5'4", fairly clean skin, and you sorta see the figure in me, and i'm not happy. It's so very strange.

  The same is for me with men, btw. I am attractive to men who others find out-of-my-league. You should see them! People really think that I've been smoking or something. They wonder where I get them from and where my interest has gone. Honestly, looks don't matter so much. I mean, they have to look decent. But i find some strange guys very attractive. It's just me.

• ipmat said on May 13, 2009....

  beauty is life when life unveils her holy face.
  
  But you are life and you are the veil.
  
  Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror.
  
  But you are eternity and you are the mirror.
  

• travelr712 said on May 13, 2009....

  well, one way to build self confidence is to acknowledge our own successes. you could start with little things. you brushed your hair and it looks nice, that's a success. you planned to go to the store, you went, got what you wanted and came back. that's a success. just find a few small things every day that you do successfully. what that does is gets you to stop focusing so much on the things about yourself you see as negative, and start focusing on some positive things about yourself. it does wonders for the self esteem.

• Edriisxe said on May 14, 2009....

  So impat, that's saying that i'm beautiful? =]
   
  Travelr, that sounds like a good start. I usually always see a negative thing in me, and it's what usually starts my day sometimes. Rarely to I have moments where I look in the mirror and appreciate what God gave me. I will certainly try.

• travelr712 said on May 15, 2009....

  well, i think you're beautiful edrii, even if i haven't seen what you physically look like.

• Edriisxe said on May 15, 2009....

  Why thank you. =] Again, travelr

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