you know the saying, if you play with fire you will get burned.. well i'm not burned but i can definitely feel the heat.  so you know what they say, if you can't stand the heat get out the kitchen.  i'm not ready to get out the kitchen, but the heat is definitely turning up, let's see if i can stand it.   see the guy and i went to our favorite hotel (4 stars at a 2 star price compliments of priceline - thanks negotiator!)  and we have a wonderful time .. we spent the first hour just talking.. i was sitting on the lounge chair and he was laying on the bed.

when we got around to making love it was the way love making is supposed to be.  soft touches, sweet kisses, he really made my body feel good all over.  so this is where the heat get's turned up. while we were making love everytime he would stroke in my mind i could hear myself telling him 'i love you' it was killing me not to say it out loud -- now we both have  told each other that we love each other and we say it all the time over IM, but i've only said it once in person and earlier today I told him i was in love with him rather than saying i love you... a few minutes later he asked me if i really was.. i said yeah but if it made him uncomfortable i wouldn't say it... so now i'm feeling all warm inside and we are making love and i am trying not to say it and then guess what - i  blurt it out and i'm surprised as much as he is and i'm pissed at myself.  he says he loves me too and i'm like you don't have to tell me that cause i said it... but he's like really i love you too.

 

now i know everyone in soulcast land is groaning and saying yeah the heat is definitely turning up and taking bets on how many more posts before the 'it's over cause....' comes along.  well i'm not sure cause i am in love with guy and i know it's going to start killing me at some point.. i just didn't think it would start this soon.