Do you ever completely let someone go??? I mean seriously. No matter which way the wind blows you, that persons impact on your life will forever endure either negatively or positively. I think I have learned that better than anyone over the past ten months since my high school sweetheart and I finally called it quits. To still say that I am pining away over our breakup would seem somewhat pathetic, even annoying. I wouldn't call it pining honestly. I have dated two guys since the breakup and both times Steven has waltzed back into my life just long enough for me to drop whoever and sit aroung and wait on him yet again. Then he is gone again, back to his girlfriend. I met this boy a few weeks ago through my sister. He is completely amazing in everyway. He is hilarious, extremely honest, cute, and so much fun to be around and he is talking to me!!! Saturday night we went out and then watched a movie at his house. We shared the most incredible kiss I have ever had. But since then fear has swept over me. I like him so much but I know how this works. Steven will discover I am happy and he will rush back long enough to pull me into his grasps yet again and then leave me back where I started. I don't want to continue in this song and dance. I want to move on and be happy away from him, and this guy has come into my life so unexpectedely and is making me believe I can fall for someone else. But do I need to pursue someone else right now? It has been ten months since I have had a real relationship. And is this guy the right one to begin a relationship with? He has been out of rehab for a few months after severe drug use. And again as I sit here rereading my words, I wonder do you ever completely let someone go? And if you do, how long will it take?