Is it wrong for me to not want to be a parent when I'm already a stepparent?  I went into this marriage knowing she already had kids and after six months I really hate doing the parent thing.  Ethan's school (he's 8) is having this parent and child sports thing tomorrow and he really wanted me to go but I said no.  He seemed a little disappointed and I guess I feel bad but still, I don't want to go.  So I'm making Kim go instead.  She said it would mean a lot to her if I went.  Still I'm not going.

Is it really wrong for me to refuse something like that?  Am I ruining this child's life by not participating in something so mundane?

I don't like meeting new people.  I don't like participating in school things for kids that aren't mine.  I don't want these kids, I don't want any kids in the future. So what am I supposed to do now?  I'm not leaving Kim just because I don't like her kids.  There's that light at the end of the tunnel that gives me hope they won't be here much longer.