I am having another one of my epsidoes sigh.  I dunno what happened, two weeks ago I was crazy happy for no real reason, now I feel like I can barely move.  I was super excited to start my new little life by myself and also kind of happy to get away from my family because they were getting on my nerves some more.  My momma decided to stay at her house and I drove back to my school by myself, a good 7 or 8 hours away.  The first few days were ok, kind of scary, but I felt like I would be ok.  Then I found out I'm probably going to fail a class, got sick and I met this great guy.  I spent 4 days feeling terrible from my cold and being by myself while skipping school because I just couldn't get myself going and putting up with my crappy apartment all at the same time.  Then it turns out the great guy either used me or is super busy, who the hell knows, either way it started me on this downward crappy ness. 

      I have tons of homework, I'm so behind, I don't care.  I feel all alone, and that I can't turn to anyone because I'll just be boring them with my silly troubles, my guy problems, or whatever else.  Get over it, is all I can think that a normal person would tell me, ya that's so easy that it's obviously helping me right now, ugh.  Today I feel like it's not guy problems, it's me, totally me.  I just feel so stuck, like I shouldn't go out because I should do my homework, but I can't get myself up to do it, but then maybe I should go out because I've been keeping myself here for a day already and not doing anything.  I had all these nice ideas for myself 2 weeks ago, and I don't feel like doing any of them, it makes me tired to think about them.  Ugh, I hope this passes and fast, I have finals soon.  I dunno what to do, I can't see my shrink till Friday. 

     I think I'll try to go out for a little bit, do something, anything, try not to spend to much money because that's bothering me too.  I hope I feel better, I dunno whats going to do it though.