I lie here waiting

Heart bent on destruction

Patiently listening to the clock count down

Your car drives round

Headlights flash through the window

And slip away

One more night of not knowing how to say

What I feel

Of this pain that’s clouding my way

I reassure myself with seeping lines

That pain is tangible

Not just something tearing me up inside

I don’t know what to do

I want every moment with you to be perfect

Untouched by my stupidity

Yet leaving some subjects unmentioned

Produces only devastation at night

I’ve had far too many feelings

That something with me isn’t right

I don’t know what to do

Shuffling steps, and next

A knock upon the door

The way I’ve come to feel for you

Makes me slip on this mask once more