first of all i wanna thank you all for the people who read and commented on my lasy post. i appreciate it.
i'm sorry if i didnt reply individually...
i don't know what's going on with my me right now...
i feel more numb than before...
i dont know if anyone notices but i'm posting songs that i'm listening while i type this blog...
songs that are dark...
well that's what i feel today...
i really feel bad for my parents right now...
this accident made a really big impact on them... mother lost her vioce today. she said it's because shes been crying all morning...
father stayed home all day long. he went to the dentist and got his tooth pulled out.
i think he did it on purpose today...
he didnt want to face anybody today. so he stayed home...
what really amazes me is the people who made an effort and visited my parents...
i'm really proud of my parents...
i know ive been bitching a lot about them but the truth is that they are good people. and today it shows...
their friends visited them and asked about our condition... it was really nice knowing that there are people out there who really cares...
the wreck car is here by the way... too bad i cant post a pic because i'm in internet cafe. maybe if i have my internet back i might post the picture...
it really looks like shit...
the front part is totally destroyed...
it was a miracle that my brother and his friends are alive today...
my younger brother...
today his name was in the newspaper and the picture of our wreck car that was upside down...
in the national paper...
shit...
the only thing funny about this is they got his name spelled wrong...
nothing funny about this though...
he said he has some neck pains. he went to the hospital earlier to have it check...
last night he said he wanted to sleep beside me. he said he was scared and he has neck problems...
yup...
he admitted that he was scared...
well who wouldnt be???
he almost died.. the car turned upside down...
i didnt get angry at him instead i put on my big sister hat on...
i told him i wouldnt say anything mean to him because i know my parents already did the "i'm dissapointed" speech...
my brother is different today...
he's more quite...
i think this accident changed him...
to all my siblings i'm closer to my younger brother since we both grew up with my grandparents...
i admit i was really angry and disappointed in what he did...
but at the same time i feel sad for him... yes he made a mistake...
i hope he learns from it...
for now with all the shits i'm going through life i feel numb...
i dont have a job... my life is going nowhere... my family has this problem with the accident. (we dont have insurance by the way)...
but i admit it has made me stronger...
i'm still clinging to the small thing called hope...
because i know things will be better...
i dont know when but i know it will be better...
dont have much to blog about today... so thank you for reading...
p.s.
please
DO NOT DRINK AND DRIVE...