So it has been about 2 or 3 weeks since I have written a blog.  I took these 2 to 3 weeks to think about a lot of stuff and didnt know how I was going to talk to my mother.  I wouldnt want to say anything I would regret later on.  Last night I worte my mom an email.  The night before, I was watching Country Music Awards (btw soo happy for Carrie Underwood, I think she really deserved winning entertainer of the year.)  and I was thinking back that my mother and I always used to watch the awards together.  We would always get annoyed that Kenny Chesney won every year even though we were absoulutley in love with him and have gone to his concerts every year.  Anways, Trace Adkins won the award for that song "Your gonna miss this" and then it got to me, I started to cry and understand that I have hurt my mother, but I didnt want to admit it.  So, I emailed my mother with a big apology to everything.  Apologizing for the blog I wrote on myspace, not giving my family the time of day, etc.  The only thing I did not apoologize for was the fact I moved out.  I apologized for the way I did, but not the reason why.  I have said it many and many times before....I left because I wanted to be an Adult.  I got a reply from my mother, and actually I didn't think I would of got this reaction from her.  She told me she was shocked of getting the email first off then went on and saying basically she just wants me happy and to always do the right thing.  She also mentioned that inspite of everything she loves me more than anything, and I think that is what I have been waiting to hear.  My mother telling me she loves me means more to me than anything and having her blessing. 

 

We still may have some struggles along the way, but inspite of everything, I love my mother and I think in the end we will do just find!

 

Thanks Readers for all your advice.