• uniquely-ironic said on Mar 29, 2009....

  My life was still pretty simple at 21.  I was going to a junior college, living at home and had discovered what I thought was the love of my life.  I was very active in athletic and was running track.  I was still figuring out what I wanted to with my life. 

• beyondtheveil said on Mar 29, 2009....

  At twenty-one I was working hard in construction, drinking a lot, girls everywhere, and taking a couple college classes at night. My God, the energy, it makes me tired to think about it. But I loved it, I loved that part of my life. There were years where I had feelings of complete freedom, this was part of it. 

• Hegemone said on Mar 29, 2009....

  That's a really touching experience you had.  Me, at 21?  I think at that point my mother was in her hospital stint, as she had overdosed, and I was completely and utterly confused and scared.  My mom is a lot better, I'm not as worried anymore.  That was also the year that my dad and I got into the fight, and it got physical.  Definitely glad to be past all of that.

• cntlvmenuf said on Mar 29, 2009....

  Wow! You've come full circle with that experience, and yes, its amazing how we sometimes get a nudge from the past disguised as an opportunity for us to give back.
  
  At 21, I was a sophomore in college, feeling out of sorts since I'd crossed an ocean to go to school and figuring my way around a new culture...or getting over the cultural shock. I had also become by default the breadwinner for my family (mom, dad & 3 younger brothers). I think most of my problems at 21, now that I look back were mostly in my head. Heck, I think even now my problems are for the most part imaginary.
  

• D6fer said on Mar 29, 2009....

  Interesting post HH.....I have recently learned of two suicides in the past week or so of two loved ones of people I know personally....a friend of my family killed himself last year.....and it really has me thinking about depression, suicide, and God.....do these folks even believe in God? Do they understand the end result to their family, friends, and soul? .....it baffles my mind that anyone could make such an ultimately selfish decision to end their lives!
  This one guy was like 76 years old! Why not finish the game at that point? He had a wife, kids, grand kids, great grand kids.
  The other was a woman in her early 50's Had a husband, kids, grand kids, a job working for her son, a life!
  I would like to hear someone justify this! It can't be done! there are so many people out there that have things so much worse than all of us, that continue to fight and cling to life everyday!
  

• fragglesrock said on Mar 29, 2009....

  very nice post, what a great feeling to be able to feel like you have made a difference to someone by being able to relate.  sometimes just seeing someone who 'has been through it' and has come out the other side is such a driving force.  i can't believe you had TWO little ones at that age.  i had a one year old at that age, i just remember the enormous feeling of being alone because none of my other friends had children and were in college and doing things that "normal" 21 year olds do. 

• fosjoh said on Mar 29, 2009....

  This morning as I looked out my window at the sunrise, God showed me something. It was a clear blue sky with no clouds. I compared what I was looking at with the sight a couple of mornings ago when there were scattered clouds and the rising sun threw a dramatic picture with colours of red highlighting the clouds and the sky. The sunrise this morning was quite dull in comparison.

  It was as if God was saying "Life without clouds is dull." We need the clouds for His glory to really shine through. It is when we have these deep problems in our life that we have the most opportunity to see the glory of God shine through.

  His Love for us

• Lioness said on Mar 29, 2009....

  I would not know what to do either had I experienced such at that age. She's lucky she found an angel that day. God is good!
  
  I was a fresh college graduate at 21, working as a secretary/cashier in an insurance company even if underpaid.  Would it matter if I said I was still naive about the birds and the bees at the time. :)

• bluegum said on Mar 30, 2009....

  Take a bow H H what you did for that young frightned girl is a credit to you .it's a shame her parents can't bend a little and put out their hand to her, who amoung us hasn't made mistakes in life.i hope for this young girl the love and understanding you gave her gives her the strength to follow her dreams.blue.

• husbandhater said on Mar 30, 2009....

  In terms of suicide feelings of sadness can be very overwelhming. Your right D there is no way to justify this. All I can do is try to explain to you what it's like to feel such things as I've battled depression. Sometimes the feelings your experiencing are so INTENSE that they might alter your normal thought process(Add this with hormones and life in experience with a young person and this is what creates the lethel combo for them). And depending on the other external forces surrounding you in life it might win out. Perhaps the 76 or 50 got bad news healthwise?
   
  And as far as the elderly go some of them are just tired and ready to see what's next. Since I work with them on my other job I can honestly tell you that there are those that have made their peace with God and are ready to GO. I had one patient who had cancer and recently died. I remember this woman on a daily basis for the last 6months saying aloud. God I'm ready why don't you take me? I'm ready to die? She said this up until the day she went.
   
  Lonliness is also a BIG part of it. I HAVE ANOTHER patient who is starving herself b/c her lover recently died a couple of months back and she said she didn't want to live if he wasn't with her. He left money to bury her but he was buried in Potters' field I think. Suicide is sad but also not so cut and dry. Everyones' reasons are different. Mines are that I love my kids too much and leaving them alone and not knowing them would kill me. Also theres that HELL and total damnation thing, I'd like to at least think that I have a crack at Heaven weither true or not. I couldn't take it if God couldn't for give me.
   
  Thankyou everyone for your contributions to my post

• sadsack said on Mar 30, 2009....

  21 was awful for me. My family were going through a terribly traumatic phase after discovering that my dad was a paedophile and we, mom and four of us, pulled up our roots and left the small town  we grew up in to go to Mumbai. The change to a big city was scary. Our match-box sized apartment was claustrophobic after the big house and garden we'd been used to. Money was very tight,my mom was ill pretty much all of the time. God, it was hell. I don't ever want to go there again!

• GOD said on Mar 31, 2009....

  why thank you my son I dont get many compliments these days

• MsBradford07 said on Apr 01, 2009....

  At 21, I was a young girl trying to get her life together. Well, it seems like I am in the same boat that I was in at 21. But a little mature.

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