I want to start off by saying, I know why you want what you want.
Have you ever heard the express, " I wish I could say I know how you feel, but I dont and can't."
Honestly, that is a load.
Everyone shares the same feeling, and I do mean feeling not feelings.
In the world there are only two feelings that humans are capable of recepting.
Love and Fear.
All other feelings are just strands coupled from these two feelings. When you are feeling one, you are not feeling the other.
I want you to know and everyone else alike. That when you attempt to take your life, you will fail. There are not many people, maybe only a hand full, that have actualy succeeded at suicide.
What you think you want, is not what you realy want. When you attempt suicide you never obtain what you want, you just walk further away. from what you actualy do want.
What is it we want?
The real irony here is, we want to live. True suicide can not be commited physicaly, only egotisticaly.
Our egos are not something we are suppose to have. The ego was created to keep you from living. To make you feel you are alive, but at the same time keep you from all the things in life that keep you from truely living.
Every last person who has eliminated themselves physicaly has actualy failed at obtaining their true wishes.
You have to ask yourself what is going to happen when once you leave this physical realm.
Are you going to go to the firing pit of hell? Probably not.
But you will find yourself in the same prediciment you are in now.
And you may find yourself attempting to do what you are comtemplating now, again.
Then you may find yourself, unknowingly, going in circles.
There is more of what you seek. The answers are here, but you have to kill your ego, and this does not entel leaving the physical realm, you will fail.
Spend time in nature. Leave all behind, that has left you. Let go of what your ego ensist on holding onto. Realize what you are made of, and realize what you make. Then and only then you will succeed.
I love you. I love you more than you will ever know. It matters not what you have done or what you will do. My love is unconditional, and you need to know that. If you can come to this realization, then you must turn your love the same.
One may ask, how can another love something they know not. I do know you, I am you. This is how I know what you feel. This is how we all share the same feelings. We all walk in the same footsteps, and not another walks a different path than I.
What ever it is you long for, I can give you that. Just as I can give you what you long, you can also obtain these things yourself..
Jason.
