As I am writing this, I am crying so bear with me here..I go check my moms facebook today and I saw she deleted every picture of me on there. What is this? I honestly didnt think it would get this bad. Maybe I do need to try harder, I just do not know..I need space for a while! I need a vacation! I wish I could be across the ocean in England to see my friend there I have been talking about. I want to spend the week there now! Things are getting so hectic=( I wish I had that much money to fly there and surprise her. I just wish my mother would learn to understand me. I know she hasnt pushed me out of her life completely, but I see there is one picture of me only! And thats of everyone-siblings, grandparents, cousins etc. I'm hurt and sad and I dont know what else I am feeling. I just need to get away for a week! No where to go, with oh so little money needed for gas, food, shelter...UUGGH=(
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simplyconfused said on Mar 18, 2009....
I think your mom is being immature. That is my first reaction. That kind of reminds me of what people do when there like younger and don't like somebody. Rip up pictures of the person, or dispose of them. I think this relationship has nothing to do with YOU doing something wrong. It's your mom whos dong the wrong she just can't see it. I don't think I would be able to handle it anymore. I think I would end up, as hard as it would be, try cut myself off from my mother.... like, it would be SOOOOOOOO hard, and I'd probably cry about it a lot. But it's not healthy to be under such insane amount of stress. Especially when your mom is trying to guilt trip you into thinking it's your fault... your trying your best but your mom isn't ... I dunno if she'll ever understand, or ever try to ..~~Simplyconfused -
pinkdiamonds11 said on Mar 19, 2009....
simplyconfused---i totally agree. i feel as if she will never understand!=( -
simplyconfused said on Mar 19, 2009....
Hmm ... I. This is SUCH a difficult situation, and it's not a fair one. I think unless your mother can like, jump in you shoes and walk around in your skin for a while, the relationship can't go anywheres. -
anna.lucia said on Mar 27, 2009....
How horrible... Mothers should love unconditionally right? It hurts so much when it seems like they don't :( Maybe this is a way to control if she can make you feel so bad? I've learned I have to distance myself from my mother. She can still twist my soul and make me so terribly sad, alone and feel unloved...but I know I have to live my life and get over the bad feelings she causes as soon as possible for my own good. Take care and love yourself in spite of your mother - enjoy your life as much as you can! -
pinkdiamonds11 said on Mar 27, 2009....
thanks anna.lucia! i really appreciate it!
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