A tearful evening yesterday and this morning.   Never have I had such a great pour out since the last last time (broken over his unfaithfulness.....).   This time is something trivial, but it's in the trivial matters that can lead to big matters, and there is no big matters without small matters too.  I was not angry, but disappointed.... disappointed again and again...


你是我胸口永遠的痛
I did fact-finding, analysis and then proposal of policy for my clients.  I helped my clients to plan for retirement, I helped them to save and advised them on emergency cash funds.  BUT....I cannot even help him.

Nevermind if you are not going to listen.  Nevermind nevermind....... I feel bad even to harbour such thoughts.  I want to respect you, I want to trust you, I want to co-operate with you, but is it the other way round too?  You know whether you are speaking the truth or 'acting' just to show...

The children asked me,"why you cry?"  How am I to answer?  It is so hard for me to say.  It's not a simple story!

Love or Honey or Bread
"TV got show", "It's in the TV", "a lot of people also like that" and so on....  Got new things, the heart yearn for it.  TV shows babes, "Wow" and his eyes divert from computer. 

Money.  It's money now.  How long can WE (I) survive like that?

Asked him.  No use.

Still need to rely on yourself.  What can I do?  Asked him to help me with the web.  Ask me to pay him money.  Ask him to help, NEVER get things done.  I wonder how long is my 'WAITING LIST'.  It will be forgotten soon! 

COMMAND you said.  If only you can help out...  Children learn things fast.  They can see the difference.  Soon, they learn.....  and that is how I supposed you learn.......

Pathetic.  Can good triumph over evil?

Let me absorb all, absorb all........