What do ya call it when something becomes so damn common nature that it's like your mornin` coffee or shit. It's just another day another dollar. Something has happened to me. I'm as comfortable in the bar as I am at home. That is not good! It's scary, or is it good? Maybe you don't really know what I mean, I've been a bartender for so long it's like second nature, It's supposed to be a fuckin` job! When did it become second nature?
There are no surprises anymore except maybe this guy stayed a beer longer then normal and it takes ya more then 10 minutes to figure out why. No situations I can't handle with a "Knock it off dumb ass!" or a "Yer bout ta piss me off!"
This seems so fuckin` old to me. I've been drinkin' tonight, so, maybe I'm just rambling, though, not quite drunk yet, give me a minute.
Maybe it's good that I'm so comfortable at work. That's just it, ya know this is not just work! some how it has become my career. Who wants a career as a bartender ya know. I'm an artist, and I'm also an affiliate marketer with a cool website . But, anyone who knows me says "Yeah, she's my favorite bartender" then later in the conversation they say "Oh yeah, she's an awesome artist too, and I think she's into computers or sumthin'."
Is this just who I am? Cus it sure is how I'm known.
When your little, you dream of what ya wanna do with yourself and your life, well, this just wasn't one of those dreams for me, ya know. Who wants to grow up to be a professional bartender? I sure as hell didn't. What did you dream of for yourself and how has your life turned out according to your dreams? Have you achieved them? How far are you off your track?
I'm just fucking burnt out right now, just a phase. I go through them some times, as I'm sure everyone does. I guess I just needed to bitch some, so thanks for listenin' (reading:)
