After many failed attempts, this is my very last, and if it proves to be unsuccesful, then I shall I continue misrably in pain and agony, as we all do.
As you will soon see, this is suicide in its truest form. Many have already done the job, but unknowingly still fail.
First of all, I want to start off by saying, that I am not doing this because I dont love myself or anyone else. The exact opposite is true, I love myself very much, as I love everyone just as much as I do myself, and with love in its truest form.
It is for this reason that I must do what I am going to do, and that is commit suicide.
I know there have been endless blogs of this nature, already posted, but let me explain why I am different.
In most of these blogs, you will find that people are giving a count down, and in that since we are the same. Except, that my countdown won't be, me counting down until the day I do it. Instead, each time I countdown, I will be killing myself slowly, eachtime doing something to make this life end that much sooner.
Let me say to my mom, I am sorry that I am such an asshole, and I now know what I need to do to change. To everyone else, including you, EVERYONE, I want to say I love you, I love you more that you will ever know, and I mean that.
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AtomicMinds posted on Mar 11, 2009
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pusscat said on Mar 11, 2009....
Hello Jason
i do try to love others and myself - hard though others and myself make it lol! May i ask you a question? I won't automatically expect an answer but would ideally like one. What is it that you love about everyone and what makes you love them no matter what?
No matter what you say about yourself, I still hate the idea of someone slowly dying for reasons that maybe only they will truly know. i won't try to talk you out of it cos that would just be disrespectful - after all, if I have read both your posts then I should know that is not what you want. I do hope to hear from you again and i won't pretend that it doens't make me sad. Crazy I know. If you said you had won the lottery and you were happy, we'd all be happy for you wouldnt we? You say you will kill yourself and its ok, you are happy and we all freak out! I guess it's our own perception of what death entails and if WE fear it or not.
I do agree with you though, not your typical suicide post :-)
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pickersplock said on Mar 11, 2009....
Well, I'm going on record saying I think it's a dumb idea. -
PieterOpie said on Mar 12, 2009....
Hi there Atomic,
Thanks for the love. Since I don't really know you at all I cannot return my love. I'm not that easy. Sex on the other hand is open to negotiation as I have no qualms about sleeping with strangers. In fact, I quite like it. Well, I would if I still had sex that is...... I gave it up years ago. So why did I bring it up? Hell, I don't know. Why are you slowly ending it all?
I too am doing things to hasten the death thing. I smoke. Apparently that will take years off my life span - or at least I hope it does. I really don't want to get so old that some poor bastard has to change my diapers.... that is just too embarrassing and no fun for the nurse. I cannot grasp the notion of immortality. Who the hell wants to be 500 or 5000 years old with a wardrobe going back several millennia? Keeping up would be terribly expensive and who want to still be working at age 500? Not me. So who would pay for all the immortals? They never talk about that, do they.....
So, is there a reason behind your self-destruction? Why are you an asshole to your mother? Is it a drug problem? That's it isn't it? Or booze perhaps?
Come on - confess!!!! TELL ME!!!! COME ON.....TELL ME OR I'LL KILL YOU!!!!!!
oh.... sorry. That would spoil everything. hehehe......
confess - please...........
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PieterOpie said on Mar 13, 2009....
are you still alive? -
mOOn_platOOn said on Mar 22, 2009....
OIt sure is taking this guy a long time to kick the bucket. Is he on death row?O -
PieterOpie said on Mar 22, 2009....
It's like the cat in the box. We have no way of knowing whether he is dead or alive so until we look inside the box we can say he is both dead and alive. Therefore we can speak of him in either state.
...or something like that.
No wait... he is both a particle and a wave. It depends on how we look at him...
If he has a twin we can tell from the twin whether he is dead or alive - (????)
I wish people wouldn't make posts like this. It's so attention seeking. Just do it I say. Leave us out of it. I hope I'm not supposed to feel guilty...............
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mOOn_platOOn said on Mar 25, 2009....
OHe's dead, Jim.O -
PieterOpie said on Mar 25, 2009....
You peeked, didn't you?
You realise that means you killed him. Shall I call the police or will you do it?
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mOOn_platOOn said on Mar 25, 2009....
OI can never get the number straight. Is it 191 or 119?O
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