I'm going to share my conflicted feelings about some of the men I'm dating. I know this may result in someone being rude, but here we go.
Last night as I was doing laundry and kicking back S from sunday night called. He was calling to see when we might have another date. Apparently my kiss left him "dizzy". I gotta find a way to bottle and sell that! LOL So we tentatively set up a date for next sunday. I think. I'm a little fuzzy on the details since I was very tired and only half interested in the conversation. I'm thinking I need to cut this guy loose. He's nice, very polite, but the fact of the matter is that I didn't get dizzy when we kissed. That, and the fact that he seems okay with me doing most of the find him, driving to him, etc bothers me. I think if a guy is really interested in me he should at least initially do most of the driving. Call me old fashioned, but the game of chase the girl has always been fun for me.
I'm supposed to see M tonight, and probably still will. I had an out and out discussion about two very important behaviors that I have decided have no place in my romantic life. Jealousy and control. He says he has no problem with them, but small things that he says lead me to believe otherwise. Or maybe I'm just super sensitive to it since my last boyfriend was the jealousy and control king. I am looking forward to seeing him, but the idea of a 45 mile drive after work makes me tired just thinking about it. (not to mention bridge tolls)
As I was cruising the net in search of fun conversation I ran across my next potential victim ..... er ..... date. He's cute, we had a nice conversation with dual webcams going. I'm a little bit afraid that he's way too smart for me though. I love smart, but this guys brains (at least in the language dept) are astronomical. I doubt I could keep up with him and he might get bored. He speaks 5 languages and is studying a 6th at the moment. Some of the languages are intensely difficult. We'll see if it works out to anything more than a glass of red wine over a conversation that doesn't involve multiple languages. Another point in his favor is that he is a local boy, born and bred. Something vaguely comforting to know his roots are here as are mine.
I'm also supposed to meet up with they youngster for a movie. No definate day or time, but that's okay. It may have to wait seeing as how my "dance card" is filling up for this week and I refuse to unschedule my "down time" days.
Okay, comment away ..... or at least help me figure out if I'm on target here. I'm still amazed at the amount of interest I'm receiving from men. A total mystery as to why a man would subject himself to my brand of crazy. Maybe it's the big boobs.
