I'm gonna complain about a new boy.  Soo I wrote about him here.  After our nice date, we chatted a little every night and he seemed really enthusastic right after the date, but it wained it seemed over the days.  I was getting a little disappointed over that, but I didn't know what I did wrong.  I noticed I was being more nervious around him and maybe not talking as much, just because I've started to like him and thats what I do when I like a guy, sigh.  Anyway, he had mentioned a day or two after our date if I'd like to see a movie at his place, because I hadn't seen it and he said it's a must.  So I said sure, and he invited me over the next day, so this was like three days after our first date, at his house, all alone.  So I said I was busy and would wait till the weekend.  I was hoping to get out of that, maybe go someplace public again, but didn't work out that way.  So I said sure, because I really did want to see him again and figured I'd be assertive and hold my ground if things happened. 

     Bad idea.  So I get to his house kinda late like 10pm or 10:30pm.  He's dressed down in casual clothes, and he looks alright.  I get to pick out a movie because he can't find his other one, and we start watching.  He holds my hand, and eventually starts asking about my day and stuff, which was nice.  Then he starts getting more comfortable on me and it felt nice, so why not.  Then we started making out a little, it was nice, so why not.  Eventually he asks if I want to see the movie in his room, and I said I didn't know, but it would be more comfortable.  So he made the decision anyway.  Then we're more comfortable and he asks me some questions about me, which was very sweet and we start to make out some more.  He gets more into it, and it feels good so why not, and I let him get to 2nd base, and before I guess 3rd base, I tell him lets slow down.  I was very proud of myself, but that wouldn't last long.

      We watch the movie a little more and eventually we're laying on each other, and it's very romantic, since he's telling me I'm cute and he likes this or that about me and he'd kiss me and hold me.  Was very nice, then he'd do this thing where he'd kiss me softly, then out of no where push me down and kiss me harder, man thats hot.  So that happens for a little bit, and then I let him get to 2nd base and since it feels good and why not, I eventually let him get to 3rd.  He's on top of me at one point and I put my hands on his arms, and oooh man he felt strong, was quite hot, that didn't help things.  Eventually it got to where we were naked and he had his hands and mouth all over me.  At this point I didn't know what to do, it felt so good and different, yet I knew it was way to soon.  The things he knows how to do too, I always felt like I knew how to do stuff with a guy, but he had me beat, maybe I just need more practice, plus I didn't want to get into it, I was just letting him do whatever he wanted.  I feel lame I didn't get into it more.  I'll explain that more later.  Anyway, so there was so many times we almost went all the way, but I kept my ground on that at least, Thank God.  I even told him I'd regret it if I did that with him, that I didn't know him well enough, and he insisted that I did, and would try to get me where he could, but I'd move out of the way, at least he didn't force anything. 

                  After we were both satisfied I guess, he fell asleep and I was laying on him.  I was mad at myself and couldn't decide how to get up without him seeing places I didn't want him to see so I could get my clothes on.  I eventually got up and he woke up, he asked what I was doing and I said I was gonna go.  He seemed kinda surprised or maybe hurt, it was hard to tell by how he reacted, but he got up and got dressed.  He checked his phone and started telling me about a friend of his.  I tried to act normal and react to his story.  I got to my car and we said goodbye, he mentioned how he'll look for the movie he wants me to see. 

       Well I'm still mad that I let all that happen, but I am starting to like him and it felt so good after what I've experience.  Anyway, the next day I couldn't stop thinking about him and I was hoping he'd get in touch with me, but no such luck, and I almost got in touch with him, but I'm glad I didn't.  Today I found out he was out partying so that's why he didn't say anything, since all week he'd been online and chatting with me.  Then I couldn't take it anymore and texted him "hows it going", he said "hey you, Im in bed my head hurts."  So I said if he was ok, got no answer.  Then I said after an hour if he needed a nurse or something, and he just said "no, I'm fine thanks"  So that was the end of that.  I know it's only been a couple days, but it's not very nice after we were pretty intimate I would say.  Plus I thought he was a nice guy.  I'm a little mad that I didn't show him my good moves too, maybe he thinks I'm lousy in the sack now, that's no good.  Or maybe it's all just bad timing?  He wanted to hang out with his friends, now he's sick, so maybe he just needs some time?  I hope I wasn't being used is all, he really seemed interested in me, with his questions and nice stuff he said.  Or maybe I'm just a silly naive girl whose still not assterive enough?  Oy I guess I have to wait and see.