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Obviously I have spending the past couple days just thinking and trying not to feel like my failed relationships is because of me.  When I am in a relationship I am as loyal as can be, I am fine if my guy wants to go out with his friends (even if friends are girls I would never tell him no) as long as if possible he give me a call to let me know he got home safely.  I am affection, and from time to time will send little notes saying how much he means to me so that he could know and not really wonder what is on my mind or heart.  I don't do that like every day or week, but like once in a blue moon.

Sure I want to find that one special person.  I want to get married someday and have kids, but I'm not like the kind of girl that would say that on the first or second date you know.  If it comes up for some reason I say when the time is right, not like say I am looking for my baby daddy.  I want what e_t and nursecutie have and what my best friend and her husband have...they are happy and sure I am happy but there is still something is missing for me.  There is an emptiness in me that I know would only be filled with having a family and I am wondering why I haven't found someone to share that with.

I am smart, funny,loyal.  I dont think I am too bad looking; in fact several guy friends keep telling me I am hot, but still I wonder why i am alone, or I dont get asked out, well I do, but not by guys I am interested in.  I think I am kind of beating myself up about things right now.  Where are the good guys hiding in Pittsburgh lol.  I just want to share my life with someone special who thinks I am special too.



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  • madstorm said on Mar 07, 2009....

    I understand you. Follow your Heart & you will find the man you desire to Love & be Love by. Make no compromises, don't let money, work or other people interfere with your hearts dream. Life is a journey, to reach the top of a mountain you must start at the bottom. Learn from everything you do. There are no mistakes. Take time alone to reflect on your actions & sense what your heart senses. It will be your guide.

    I am your friend.

  • rmuxagirl said on Mar 07, 2009....
    mad: i am just like incredibly hurt that I give my all in a relationship you know only to have my heartbroken.  And I don't understand, I do let my heart lead, maybe that is one of the problems.  Maybe I am too idealistic.
  • travelr712 said on Mar 07, 2009....
    if you don't let your heart lead, you can't really love rmux. you're doing the right things, just with the wrong guys. finding the right one is never easy, and sometimes you have to realize that there are a couple things on your 'list' that need to be let go of or you'll never recognize mr. right.
  • madstorm said on Mar 09, 2009....

    I've never yet met a woman that actually believes I Love her. Every single one of the six women I've known in my Life were already heartbroken before I met them. The last relationship I had was with a German woman, we were together on & off for over 5 years but she had built such an inpenetrable wall around her heart that absolutely nothing I did made any difference. No amount of gentleness, affection & sensitivity penetrated that wall of pain inside her. I have a lot of Love to give but it seems nobody wants it. That's ok by me because in the painful process of my relationships I've discovered there is immense beauty & peace in being alone.

    I am always open to give Love & affection. I am who I am & if a woman accepts me for who I am then I give my whole heart. A woman is always free to do what she wants, the only thing I require is that she is honest. I've never been unfaithful to any woman. One relationship at a time is enough for me. If a woman is not happy then I let her go without bitterness or resentment. I have always remained friends with the women I've known.

    There's nothing wrong with being idealistic.

  • Voltaire said on Mar 10, 2009....
    There is a universal truth about love which this quote indirectly  relates to:
    "Sometimes you can't see the forest because of the trees."

    I have had my heart broken numerous times to.

    And believe me when I say the next surprise is just around the corner!
    Life itself can throw things at you when you least expect it.

    And as far as finding good guy's, from my point of view it's just as hard as finding a good gal.

    Best of Wishes,
    Voltaire
  • starchini said on Mar 13, 2009....

    Cousin Emilia has a tattoo on her forearm that says "loveing me, is loveing you"...I didnt get it when I saw it, i asked her about it.  Shes always had self image issues, thinking something was wrong with her, she didnt love herself...She said "If I cant love myself, I cant love anyone else".  She got the tattoo to remind herself to appreciate and not take herself for granted, to remind herself that she needs to love herself.  And when that happens, she can love someone else...It musta worked for her, she found her soulmate a while later and they have a baby now. 

    I dont know if that relates to you or not, after reading your post it was just the first thing I thought of. 

    xxxxx

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