Obviously I have spending the past couple days just thinking and trying not to feel like my failed relationships is because of me. When I am in a relationship I am as loyal as can be, I am fine if my guy wants to go out with his friends (even if friends are girls I would never tell him no) as long as if possible he give me a call to let me know he got home safely. I am affection, and from time to time will send little notes saying how much he means to me so that he could know and not really wonder what is on my mind or heart. I don't do that like every day or week, but like once in a blue moon.
Sure I want to find that one special person. I want to get married someday and have kids, but I'm not like the kind of girl that would say that on the first or second date you know. If it comes up for some reason I say when the time is right, not like say I am looking for my baby daddy. I want what e_t and nursecutie have and what my best friend and her husband have...they are happy and sure I am happy but there is still something is missing for me. There is an emptiness in me that I know would only be filled with having a family and I am wondering why I haven't found someone to share that with.
I am smart, funny,loyal. I dont think I am too bad looking; in fact several guy friends keep telling me I am hot, but still I wonder why i am alone, or I dont get asked out, well I do, but not by guys I am interested in. I think I am kind of beating myself up about things right now. Where are the good guys hiding in Pittsburgh lol. I just want to share my life with someone special who thinks I am special too.



